Let's all go to the movies: "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo" & "The Girl who played with Fire"

Hey everyone! I know the world has talked about the “The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo” book & series by the late Stieg Larsson but I’m going to talk about the Movies. I promise there will be NO SPOILERS in this post. I love movies, all types. I especially have a soft spot for foreign films because they do everything. No stone is unturned & sometimes American movies are exactly the same movie done over & over again with different actors but similar plot. Well “The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo” is one of the most original movies I have ever seen.


There are so many plot twists in this movie & surprisingly even with subtitles there isn’t any moment where your like “Huh? Wait hold on a minute that makes no sense?” It’s very easy to follow the turns & you just hold on for the ride. The basic set up of the story is that a girl disappeared for 40 years & her uncle before he dies wants to find out what happened to her. He hires a man named Michael Blomkvist, a journalist to help him solve this case. The girl with the dragon tattoo’s name is Lisbeth Salander. She is a fact checker with a past who had been doing research on Blomkvist & gets thrown into this investigation as well. Not going to lie there are a few parts in the movie, for example a rape scene, which is very raw & brutal to watch, but it all adds to the story. Every scene in the movie has a purpose. There is no marshmallow filler scenes to drag out the content too. Also what’s really cool is that you think you figured it out & BAM nope. It’s a lil like Shutter Island, but way cooler. You are pretty much on the edge of your seat the whole movie waiting for each new scene because you want to know so badly. Her dragon tattoo is also really fucking cool! I give it an A++!!


I luckily enough got to see the 2nd movie too! There is a theater by me that will get those random obscure foreign films that are usually only played in NYC. It makes me happy. I went to see, “The Girl who played with Fire” last week and honestly I liked the first one better, but it was a very successful sequel. The story continued pretty much where the other one left off & what was really cool was it was the same actors as the first. The girl who plays Lisbeth Salander, a Ms. Noomi Rapage, is so badass & just freaking awesome. She is tough & smart & Oooo the twists of this movie will have you go “Omg I totally did NOT think that’s where it was going.” I give it a B+.

I will admit that there are some confusing parts of the second movie. The first one is very easy to follow but the second one they do throw a lot of names at you & a lot of the male characters look EXACTLY the same so it’s slightly all over the place. You really have to pay attention but by the end you know what’s going on. Now….do I read the books?

Of course the movie is going to change some things from the book & the books will of course go into more detail. Life has been so busy lately I have no idea when I’m going to get the time to read these books but it’s definitely on my list! I hope the American version of these movies does butcher the hell out of it or water some of it down too much. Daniel Craig might do a good job as Blomkvist but the girl? Hmmm…she’s got some big shoes to fill. I’m crossing my fingers!


Okay, hope that review was helpful! Later everyone!

My heart almost sank last night…

Last night was almost really bad. I’m lucky enough to have both sets of grandparents still with us & we recently celebrated my mother’s father’s 88th birthday. God bless him seriously. He’s a tough man who was even in WWII. I love all my grandparents so much & I get so upset when something bad happens to them.

Last night we got a call that my grandfather was in the hospital. I hate when the house phone rings in the middle of the night. It’s never good. Apparently he went to a dinner with my grandmother for some insurance honor & he fell on the stairs & hit his head. My heart was in my throat. What really sucks is that I’m an hour and half away from them. I live in NY & they live in Connecticut. We never would have made it up there because it was raining & we were so tired. I wish they were closer.

Thank God he was okay. Omg he’s 88 he can’t afford to fall. He didn’t break anything & he just has a bump on his head & thankfully there is no other injuries. I’m really glad that he decided to go to the hospital just in case. If there is something really wrong don’t think twice about going to the hospital. If something gets worse your taken care of & they can help you.

It was a pretty big scare because we couldn’t get to them but he’s home now it just scared the shit out of me. I wish I could put them in a bubble. He needs to be more careful. Ohh sigh. I’m stressed out. We all need to stop running & just take a breath. This could have been worse. I guess the purpose for this post is to just tell you to be very careful & if your hurt make sure you go to the doctor or hospital. Okay I’ll be back later.

"I'm moving on up to the deluxe apartment in the sky"....well maybe just a studio condo instead. lol.

Once upon a time I always wanted to own Barbie’s dream house. I never had one. It’s totally cool tho because when I was lil it was like majorly expensive & my lil cousin had one so I just played with hers when I went over to her house. I’ve wanted my own dream house to live in & decorate for as long as I can remember. NEVER in this year did I truly believe I would actually move out of my parent’s house. I mean come on New Year’s resolutions sometimes appear to be going strong the first few weeks of the year & by the time August rolls around you’ve pretty much forgot what they were. Hell I’ll admit I had to look back on my New Year’s post to check that I had “Move Out” on it. Hehe. But somehow I’m doing it.

Well on paper I’m doing it but in real life it feels like it’s NEVER going to happen. The past month has been a real pain in the ass with this condo. The people have moved out so every day I see the windows of my future dream home all dark & it makes me sad. I WANT TO MOVE IN SO BAD!!!! There is sooo soooo much they don’t tell you on these HGTV shows that I hate to say it makes buying a home easy. It’s not. Bidding wars, waiting on the mortgage, finding out your mortgage payment, making sure the stove & refrigerator are included, buying furniture, finding places to put things until I can move in, light fixtures, cleaning the carpet, not using your credit cards so I’ve only been able to use cash, paying off my car first, realizing that the mortgage payment is a lil too expensive for me a month and oh yeah the biggest bitch thing of it all…WAITING.


Omg I’ve been waiting to find out my closing date now for a month. It’s going to be some point in September. The lastest it will be is September 30th. It’s stressful the waiting. I feel bad that CJ is holding boxes for me in his car because I have no where to put them. People are giving me things & all my lil tag sale finds are becoming lost amongst the clutter. I need to move in. I wish it was tomorrow.

I also have decided to get a Part-Time job to help pay for all of this. I have an interview at the Anthropologie store near me. I love that store but honestly I can’t afford much in it. That’s fine with me but if I had an employee discount I could get the lil décor items I would want in the future. My monthly bills are going to add up to a more than I hoped for but it’s all still do-able. The job is needed for other things that I might need. It’s all in my near future it’s just I wish it was now. Soon tho, very soon. I hope I hope!!

When you moved into your first places renting or buying was it this stressful & hectic? I’d love to hear your stories! =)



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Let the explaining begin....

So what happens when you have wayyy too much to do & only 2 days & 1 night to do it in? Chaos & a lot of laughs. This weekend I really felt like I was trapped in the movie, “Forces of Nature” & “Meet the Parents” because everything that could go Wrong did & then some. It did have some very nice moments but others I almost lost my cool. Well let’s get started.

Part I: CJ on Friday night had to babysit this darling boxer doggie & I came along for the ride. Things were going great we were chilling by the pool, drinking some beer, playing with the dog, & just enjoying ourselves. The owners wanted us to stay over at the house to walk the dog in the morning so we were like awesome okay. That’s where we got in trouble….We got dressed for bed & then CJ went outside for a cigarette and I decided to go out with him……….I closed the door behind me. To which CJ turns to me & says, “You did not just close that door. We’re now locked out.” I freaked. I locked us out because I didn’t realize the door opens from the inside but is still locked on the outside. No phones, no keys, no shoes, & middle of the night. FUCK!!!

I cried. We started trying all the windows & the other doors, but alas everything was LOCKED! I swear there was some angel watching out for us. We noticed that one of the window panes was a lil loose. They had a gardening shed open so we used a gardening shovel to get in the crease. We pried it open by delicately prying open the other window. I still can’t believe we got back in the house. I will never be babysitting the dog again.


Part II: Let the interrogating begin. We both had family functions so we kinda equally got to go to each others & both got the dose of 20 questions from each other’s family. I do honestly think we are moving too fast with the family stuff. We’ve only been dating 3 months & I’ve already been told I’m in his family Secret Santa for Christmas. Uhhhh…Yes I’m intimidated. I told him that tho. He said it’s okay. It was his cousin’s 40th birthday & my grandfather’s 88th birthday. Both parties were nice. I think we are slowly sliding more into each other’s lives & honestly I’ve never had this. It’s new. My head hurts from being asked so many questions but that’s typical of families. All in all it was successful. My family loves him. Whew! What a load off. I like his too.


Part III: Then came the rain. I don’t think you’re a honest couple until you’ve gone through lil hardships & ran from the car for your dry life into the mall. I got soaked to the bone. My hair was once straight today but it proceeded to curl up. It’s okay tho he thought it was funny. We got into the Bed, Bath, & Beyond & literally had to ring out our clothes. We just stared at each other for a minute & laughed so hard. This was a crazy weekend of non-stop go-go-go. We came to an agreement that we’re going to have to find time for ourselves that isn’t just napping. Some cool down, relaxing time is definitely needed. I’ve never been more tired.

I did it. I stuck by the whole weekend. Wow. I guess this is where the A.D.H.D. kicks in. Thankfully it did. It’s still raining here now so hopefully it will tamper off. I’m exhausted. This week is going to be a busy one but tomorrow I’m writing about the demo I went to. I made some cool stuff I can’t wait to share. See you all tomorrow! =)

There so goes…there she goes again…

I wish I had nothing to do this weekend. Seriously the last 3 months have been the busiest time of my life & it’s not even the holidays. I have never had a boyfriend who wants to bring me with him places to be I guess what you call his “Plus 1” but if you combine what I have to do & him it’s getting a lil ridiculous. Earlier this week I remarked that I wanted to take it easy & try to do a lil less & get some time for myself this week. Yeahhh it didn’t happen. This weekend isn’t going to be any slower. Here’s what I have in store.

Friday Night: Helping CJ babysit his friend’s dog all night

Saturday Morning: William’s Sonoma demo on making butter & ricotta (Really looking forward to this tho!)

Saturday Night: CJ’s cousin’s birthday party at a restaurant

Sunday: My grandfather’s 88th birthday in Connecticut

Monday Night: CJ’s best friend with 4 kids invited us over to dinner at her house.

I’m overwhelmed. Granted I haven’t been in a relationship for a while but this is a lot of stuff. Every weekend I’m served a full plate like this as well as a full plate of restaurant or barbecue or very fattening food. I’m exercising & trying so hard to cut down my food intake during the day so when I do eat out it’s not as harmful to my waist but nothing seems to be working. I’m going to try to squeeze in going back to the gym today but I don’t know how successful this is going to be. I’m stressed. I need to really work on finding a balance after this cluster of busy passes.

Maybe I can do it all and not lose more of my mind? Maybe…

Where are they now? (Not a celebrity post. Hehe.)

Over the course of last year I had a problem that kept popping up in one way or another. My exes kept trying to come back somehow. Yeah I guess I have the reversed version of Scott Pilgrim vs. the world. I had to defeat my own. Whether they came back as friends (Yeah right, they wanted *cough* something), or to fool around or to date me again they still veered their ugly heads. I thought I would take a minute to tell you a few of the “Where are they are now” and why even after time a jerk or an asshole will still be a jerk or an asshole and how important it is to KEEP CALM & MOVE ON. There is a certain one in particular that I seem to be more over him these days but yeah I realized he was all lies & shit basically because he’s torturing some other girl now. Let’s begin.


SGD: Sexy Goth Dave is his name. This was a guy who I had a major crush on about 5 years ago. He was exactly as his name says. I was head over heels obsessed with him. But alas it never went anywhere. He jokingly asked me to marry him one day to which I declined because I was too young at 20. Well…..I AM SO HAPPY I SAID NO! Even as a joke. Where is he now? He recently changed his martial status of ”Married” to “In an Open Relationship”. Wtf? Apparently he is still married but he can sleep with who ever he wants & his wife has the same liberties…..Soo happy I didn’t wait to be older for him.

Spanish boy with the gray eyes: He called me the wrong name at a very bad time so I ended the relationship. He didn’t drive because he lost his license due to a DWI, wore the same 2 shirts alternating each date, & lived with his mom. Told me he was going to be a vascular surgeon. Where is he now? Still can’t drive, still lives with his mom, saw a recent photo he still wears 1 of the 2 shirts a 1 ½ years later, & is dating a girl with the wrong name he called me. Is still a teacher, never started school to become that surgeon. Occasionally will message me for what reason I don’t know. He’s still a sap.

Drummer Boy: Remember him? The boy that drove me nuts for about 2 months last year because I couldn’t figure out what he wanted from me. Friend or date? Thought he was still seeing his ex out in Arizona & was just looking for a fling while she was away….Well… Where is he now? Found a girl who will date him while he still is dating that girl in Arizona so while she’s away at school he has someone to play with & then switches back to the Arizona girl when she comes home. How ridiculous is that??

The Mess: My Brown-Eyed Mr. Big. He was my life basically for 3 ½ years. He toyed with my emotions & used me. I hate him so much. I thought he’d come back eventually but he has gone on with his life but….Where is he now? Balding really badly, is still with the girl he cheated on with me, still works in CVS even tho he was supposed to be a famous movie director by now. A friend told me he saw him & he is awful to his girlfriend. He dropped all his friends so he only hangs out with the gf’s friends. Is probably more & more in debt. He went on so will I.


It’s interesting what time will tell. Who knows if CJ is the one but he makes me happy & smile & I’m glad I’m not still with any of these other guys or still waiting around them to I guess come to their senses. I don’t answer any of them if they try to contact me because seriously what’s the point? There is none. Here I go…turn the page….

I stepped up to the plate & asked him Why? & It worked...

I never knew what the real Bonnie & Clyde looked like until today. The above picture is what that legendary gangster couple looked like. I think the picture is really cute that he picked her up like that. I keep calling CJ my Clyde now. No we aren’t robbing any banks lately but we seem to be doing everything together & spending so much time together that it reminds me of them. I did a post a week or so ago about him that he believed he was “Out of my League” & asking me questions about “Am I enough for you” or “Do you still like me?”. Well I got up the nerve to flat out ask him,

“Hey what’s up with that? Is there anything I can do to make you feel more like I’m yours & more secure in our relationship?”
His response was that it’s not me it’s him. I’m apparently being a great girlfriend to him & from his past serious relationships he has been branded with some insecurities. He said they are likely to go away with time, but for me not to worry because it’s something he himself has to get over. He then gave me a compliment which pretty much sums it all up.

“You’re the first girl I’ve ever dated that I feel like I can actually trust. I know when you say you’re going to your Writer’s Club, you are actually there. I’m not even scared to leave you to go have a cigarette. I trust you Mel & that is new to me & awesome. This is new for me. I actually am having fun in this relationship & I don’t feel like I settled on you.”

So the girls he’s dated in the past must have been real pieces of work that he’s never been able to trust them and he’s always felt like he’s settled on girlfriends. Now he feels like he’s in this relationship because he wants to be. That’s fine by me. You have to get used to the person & see if you fit into the other’s life. This relationship is working & we both have to get over a few things from our past so I’m hoping we can do that together. I have my own baggage so I think we’re pretty much equal. I hope we can just still take it one day at a time.

Also I found out that all this doubt might be from his mother. His mom told me that she asks him all the time, “Are you guys still together? Is it still going good?” I have no fucking clue why she says this because I see her all the time so I’m like huh?? Maybe because she keeps asking him questions it’s putting doubt in his head that we don’t seem like we’re working. We are working & I think she needs to just let us have a relationship & not know every little detail.


Relationships aren’t easy & aren’t hard but you have to meet in the middle, you have to keep an open-mind, you have to take the other person as they come, & be yourself to them. One thing I really like about this relationship is that I’m totally myself in it. The fact that he can tell that I’m being honest & being myself is amazing. I feel like I’m in a successful relationship & I hope it continues. I love the fact that we were able to talk about this stuff too. I stepped up to the plate & got my answer. Yeah!! I might have found my Jack. <3

Don't worry baby...everything will turn out alright...

Where to start? This past weekend my mind was everywhere. Everything feels so real to me all of a sudden & I’m a lil taken aback by it. I have to sit & pause & look at the decisions I have made. Maybe it’s from the birthday. I sort of feel like I’ve been a child and now I got dropped into a 25 year old’s life. This odd feeling of “Ohhh so this is what’s happening uhhh can I really do this?” has been a long time coming. It’s not new, I just haven’t written about it. It might be a consequence of the auto-pilot mode I’ve been living in. Life happened fast all of sudden. Deadlines, relationships, mortgages, furniture, health, & moving on all at once. Working out yesterday, yes I did my 10-minute exercise tape, I remembered that it’s been almost a year since I had my gall bladder removal surgery & it’s been less than 3 months since my fibroid removal surgery from my right breast. I hurt a lil bit so I have to remember to take it easy. Taking it easy…..sounds like a foreign concept to me. I need to re-introduce myself to it.

What prompted this sudden I need take a step back was really this weekend. I did in an excel spreadsheet my daily expenses when I’ll have the condo. It’s going to be a lot of money. I scrimp & I save already & now I have too increase that by ten fold & it’s making me upset. I tried to get my mortgage lady on the phone to find out exactly what my payment would be but she apparently wasn’t in today. I’m freaking out that I won’t be able to afford this or my savings will disappear too quickly & that I don’t make enough money for this. I do have enough but I just hope this isn’t going to be more of a burden than a freedom. It’s a big step all of this.

However I did get some pieces at an estate sale & a thrift store. A little paint & some cleaning & I think these pieces will be very nice.


Retro Brass Magazine holder: $3

Canisters for Sugar, Flour, etc: $1 each

Metal Wall shelving for bathroom: $1

Me happy of my thrift store finds.
Getting these items & some others calmed me down a bit. I can get some things for cheap so I don’t feel like I’m drowning too too bad.


The other thing that hit me in the face was my relationship with CJ. We went to one of his family barbecues & I saw him playing with kids and his family was so welcoming but I felt very overwhelmed by seeing a possible future of mine. Overwhelmed is probably the wrong word but I just feel like we’ve skipped something before all these family things. We skipped time going by. Having our parents know each other already we skipped over the “How long should we date before we meet each other’s parents?” stage. We both got catapulted into this. This is a serious relationship & I’m ready for it I just want enough time to go by for it all so it naturally progresses instead of burning everything out. I don’t think that’s too much to ask?

It’s a lot but I’m need some time with it all. Tomorrow I’m going to try to keep to myself a lil & not hang out with CJ & just do some cleaning to think things over. I need to maybe bring things a lil back to my pace so I don’t feel so out of control. New week, new day, new thoughts…new dreams. You gotta chill out once in a while. I’m in definite need. Ever do that? Take a breather & just reflect? I’ll be doing that. Til Tomorrow…

I know a drugstore cowgirl so afraid of getting bored...

Okay so I blinked and this week flew by. I’ve been so tired this week that it’s basically been auto-pilot mode. That’s not like me tho. I love to blog, I love to comment, but at work I’ve had to actually do work so my blogging time was cut way too short this week. Ohh what I wouldn’t give to take my computer & my desk & hit it repeatedly with a bat like the coolest dudes ever did in the movie “Office Space;” I think I have enough pieces of flare for the day thank you very much. Hehe. Tonight I have to do my submission for my Writer’s group which I’ve neglected to talk about lately but I am still a member & still struggling a little bit with my zombie novel. This year that will be one of my main goals to get some organizational handle on it. The group is helping but I need more drive. I’m hoping as the fall season rolls in & when I have my own place I’ll have the much needed quality time. =)


I can’t wait to move into my condo. Every day when I come home from work I glance hopefully over at my future home. I still don’t know my closing date for when I can move in but I should know soon. I took a lovely trip to Ikea with CJ & I’m looking forward to the day when I can take some of those awesome items home. CJ is a kickass boyfriend but he kinda gave me wayyyy too many boxes so my parent’s place is too full to bring home some more goodies. Soon tho.

Pretty much everyone I know is helping me out with the dreaded furniture ordeal. I never realized how much furniture actually is!! Omg couches are like the most expensive pieces ever! Luckily CJ has an old couch from his old apartment he’s going to lend me til I can afford my own. My friend Debra has an extra microwave to give me, with a spice rack & a bookcase she isn’t using in her place. My Aunt Mary has coffee mugs to give me, my grandparents have dishes & champagne glasses, & my friend Pat is making me a throw blanket for my future bed & …. It makes me happy. I CAN’T remember the last time I’ve been this happy. Truly.


It’s been madness these past couple days & it has caught up with me in a certain category. I was at CJ’s last night & he had a proper scale. I gained 10 pounds in the past month. That’s not terrible but I have a pair of pants that isn’t fitting me anymore. Yeah, Red flag. I need to go back to the gym & I need to watch what I eat. I was in the Shop Rite last night & glanced over at a magazine cover & saw a picture of Jennifer Hudson. Wow she looks amazing. I remember her on American Idol & I give her so much credit for proving Simon wrong. She has a beautiful voice & an amazing personality and did go far with her career. She’s so motivating in her “Healthy” transformation. She lost weight & she feels like she is at a healthy, comfortable weight. That is EXACTLY what I want to achieve. Why not start today? Sounds great to me.

I gotta rush to work, ahh the beauty of coffee in the morning, it really wake you up. I got a great night sleep & I’m ready to push forward!! Who’s with me? =) Have a great weekend everyone!! =)

Title: lyrics from "Beautiful Disaster" - 311

One of the best birthdays I’ve had in years!

This past Saturday was my 25th birthday & it was a total successful marathon of total awesomeness! I was so stressed because I didn’t know if I fit everything I had to do in but it worked & rocked. The day began when I awoke to see my mom making one of the most beautiful birthday cakes I’ve ever seen. My mom is a cake decorater too among her many talents. One of my birthday presents is that she signed me up for her cake decorating class she is going to be teaching at my high school. I want to learn how to make a rose out of icing & with the new apartment I can totally have the space to practice! =) Here’s the cake she made me:


I’m still in awe over it. CJ arrived early in the morning & we started out the day with my now favorite way to start a Saturday morning. Mimosas. Ohhh wonderful mimosas. Hehe. It’s basically champagne & orange juice but damnn it’s good!! We head over to his friend’s house whose birthday was also the 7th. I impressed CJ’s friends because we at least stopped by & showed that we cared that it was his birthday too. CJ brought his water balloon launcher over to the guy’s house so that was hilarious. Onward we went then…

My condo development was having their annual block party too so they all sang me “Happy Birthday” which was made me laugh because a lot of them were very drunk. Well they didn’t have to drive anywhere so good for them getting drunk. Hehe.



Cj got me one of the coolest gifts that had just enough sentimental value to bring a big smile to my face. It’s an electronic photo frame & he put all the pictures from our trip to Chicago on it & picked out music that we both like & it was just soo nice. I mean we’ve only been dating like 2 and a half months, I didn’t expect him to get me the biggest gift ever but what he got meant a lot because he took the time to put all the pictures & the music together. It was really sweet.


The other half of my gift was a trip to the restaurant called “The Melting Pot”. Anyone ever hear of it? It’s a fondue place that seriously O.M.G. amazing!!! We had the two cheese fondues; swiss & cheddar & then the chocolate one for dessert. I think they rolled me out of there because it was too too good not to finish it all! Cj was a complete gentleman & let me know that he had one more surprise for me. I knew we were going to a local bar & I invited some friends but he invited all our mutual friends so it was a really cute lil party! Here are some highlight pics! =)




It’s so nice to date a guy where things add up to something. All the people I wanted to be there showed up & I learned who some true friends are & made some new friends this night. I’m absolutely exhausted from all the running around but this new life is pretty fucking cool. I’m liking it. I’m curious to see where it’s going to go next! Til Tomorrow…

Tomorrow is my Birthday!! =) 25 here I come!!

Tomorrow is my 25th Birthday. Wow. I never imagined my life would be like this on my 25th birthday. See 25 was the year I told myself when I was I little that I'd be all grown up. Well I'm on my way tho! I was honestly freaking out a lil bit that I was hitting the big 25 because I felt like I hadn't done much since I graduated college & was kinda floundering in everything I was up to. But the change I longed for ever so much has come slowly little by little & I'm so happy it did. I'm looking forward to this age more & more.

Hmm I wonder though when I'm going to stop being asked to show ID! lol! Before 21 I was never asked...now I get asked all the time. Oh well. SO tomorrow CJ is taking me out for a romantinc dinner & then we are meeting up with some of my friends & our mutual friends at a little bar called the Saloon. Maybe just maybe I'll get to see Inception! My mom is making me a cake with the yummy icing I like so I can have the beaters of the icing for breakfast. Yeah I can still be a lil kid sometimes. I hope I never lose that. =)

I am feeling a 100% better! I'm grateful for modern medicine!!! Thank you everyone for your feel better wishes! I kinda feel like Tinker Bell when you had to clap to bring her back to life! It worked! =) I'm going to partying around tomorrow so I won't get to post! Sooo see you all on Sunday!! =)

Do not pass go, do not collect $200!

No I'm not the next Lindsey Lohan but I feel like I just got the jail card. I'm sick. Isn't that typical too? When you have a big weekend like your 25th birthday you just suddenly & I mean suddenly get tonsillitis...ughhh. This sucks. I did rush myself to the doctor & I got antibiotics but I don't think it's helping at all. I've been so good about not getting sick then Wham! It seems like every week there is always something on Wednesday or Thrusday that knocks me off my feet! =/ I really hope this clears up ASAP!

The people moved out of my future condo so I actually got to go in there yesterday & measure!! I'm still not sure on the closing & move in date. It looks bigger without the furniture but it's a perfect size for me. I finally got to show CJ & he said it looks great. He can't wait to help me decorate & fix some things up! Him & I....I'm trying to be more affectionate yet not clingy. It just sucks though that I can't kiss him right now. I feel bad, but I think he understands I don't want to give him tonsillitis. Thank you for all your ideas. It might be a self-esteem thing with him so I'm trying to be a great girlfriend & take it one day at a time. I'm not used to a guy treating me so well & actually being in a relationship that might be worth something big so maybe we need to meet in the middle? I'm going to try!


Ya know I just realized I've always been sick for major birthdays. I was devastastingly sick for my 16th birthday...so of course I'll be sick for my 25th! lol. I feel better than I look or sound but it I wish my throat was better. Grrr. Sigh. I'm going to drink some more tea & pop alot of cough drops. Maybe I'll get better by Saturday. I hope, I hope!!!

What to choose to review from CSN stores?!?!?!

While I was in Chicago I got contacted to do a review for the website: CSN Stores! I've worked with them before as well as many of you have & it has always been a delight! They have the largest selection of products in the largest variety of categories on the web. In addition to being the largest retailer of home furniture online, did you know that that offer everything from Bedroom Furniture Sets to baby toys to generators to commercial office desks? And it's easy to find exactly what you want among our hundreds of choices with only a few quick clicks. I can't wait to pick a product to review!

I've been getting ready for the my new condo so I will probably be picking a home decor or a houseware item to review. I know I'm going to pick this tea kettle to review:


Primula 2.5 Qt Stainless Steel Whistling Tea Kettle
I have alot of tea & alot of my friends love tea so I think I'll put this to good use! But what else do I need for my condo? I have a waffle maker, carrot peeler, ice cube trays, a mattress & a couch lined up...so what else?

What is your MUST HAVE item in your home you have to have??
This post is sponsored by CSN Stores! CSN has become my go to site! I will soon be reviewing one of their great products, but in the meantime be sure to check out their site. CSN stores I promise you will be surprised with all that they offer!

What else am I to do?

Well today kinda threw me for a loop. I've been dating my boyfriend now for about 2 months & everything is going better than I can ever imagine. But then today happened. So I invited CJ over for dinner tonight & as we were sitting he pulled this rabbit out of his hat...

"So Melanie I think your out of my league."
Uhhh what? I asked him why & he kinda didn't give me a straight answer. He didn't break up with me but I took his head in my hands & gave him a huge kiss to try to make him feel that I want to be with him. All through the night he was like "How are you Mel?" & "Am I enough for you?" & "Are you sure your happy?". My head is in spins right now.

I bought him the Mets tickets this weekend I went with him & I joined him in Chicago. I faced my fears for him to go on a plane, I've gone to numerous family events with him & I'm trying to be affectionate but not clingy so I'm at a loss at the moment. I keep saying I'm so happy & that I'm so lucky to have him too. I hugged him real tight & kissed him goodbye tonight & made plans for Wednesday night so I'm like huh? I wonder who maybe telling him that I'm out of his league?? I have NEVER mentioned that I even had a doubt about him & he's all like, "Maybe we'll change, people change". It's only been 2 & half months so I don't know why he's freaking out?


He did tell me he's falling for me hard. Maybe he's scared that I won't love him back? I don't want to pull the "Love" card so soon in the relationship but maybe I have to. I put that we were official on facebook & tagged myself with him so I don't know what else to do for him to prove to him I want to be with him?? I snuggle up with him & laugh with him watching movies so I'm really puzzled.....I did act a lil tired this weekend & kinda passed out while he was playing the guitar so I hope he doesn't think I bore him? He said I act formal by inviting him over for dinner instead of just telling him, be here for dinner at 6:30. But I find it polite? Isn't it?

I told him he was the best boyfriend I've ever had which is the truth. I told him I'm so happy with a huge smile on my face & I try to kiss him with feeling. What else can I do? It's like he's preparing for me to leave even tho I'm not going anywhere. I don't get it. I don't think I've given him one single inkling that I want out so what's up with this? He's my lobster. He might be my other half I've been searching for & I'm freaking out because I want to keep him.

I need a lil help here. If not advice, maybe a similar story & what you did? Beyond the obvious how do you assure to your boyfriend that your his girl? I want to be with him & only him. Saying it with a big passionate kiss isn't enough apparently???

Let me hear you scream...

I’m back & ready to blog! I wish I had answers about my last post but I just have a closed door in the face. Time will tell with my job. I did start sending out resumes on career builder because that’s all I can do. I can hope I keep my job for just a lil bit longer while the whole condo deal happens but maybe it’ll push me to do something new? Maybe I’ll get that shove to pursue a more meaningful position? I don’t know. I’m calmer about it but who know? What else is on the agenda…ah yes.

This summer has been the busiest time for me in the past year but I’m back for the long haul. I love to blog oh so much & tomorrow is MY BLOG BIRTHDAY!!! I never imagined blogging would be such a great & important part of my life! I get asked this question all the time now I will answer it…

So why did you start blogging?

I watched the movie, “Julie & Julia” & it opened my eyes to blogging. I really honestly had never heard of it much. I had a livejournal that was sort of a diary so I was used to writing everyday but I didn’t expect to have this year of experiences. The connection to the outside world outside my lil county in New York has been so cool & amazing & I just had to say, “THANK YOU!!” for making this all possible. This past year I’ve changed so much & made some good life choices that whew I’m so relieved I’m not where I was when I first started this blog. So LET’S PARTY!!!


Grab a virtual cupcake & have a good time here while you visit!!
Hmmm I’m trying to remember my favorite post & it would have to be the one about the Lacie. Hehe. Remember that? I put to the challenge the whole “One Size Fits all” fiasco in Victoria Secret. Well I got news for ya!! It does NOT fit all. Big shocker there. Lol. It was so small it fit my stuffed animal bear. Here’s the link in case you missed it: Does One Size Fit All? The Review of the Lacie.

This week is going to be a busy a week. I got to go to my new condo & measure, pick a color scheme, & start looking at furniture. It’s so exciting! Today I went to the New York Mets baseball game with CJ. I got him tickets through a friend of mine who’s dad could get a great deal. He was so happy to go. My new favorite hobby is making him smile. Here’s us at the game!



Okay I’m exhausted! My actually birthday is on Saturday too. I’m turning 25! I can’t wait for it all!! Goodnight!!

Uncertainty.

There are about 3 categories of life that sometimes make or break a person. Job, relationship, & place to live. I think Carrie mentions it in some episode of SATC. There are of course more factors but those 3 have been plaguing me & throwing me around for multiple loops lately. It's really difficult to have all 3 at once apparently. I had the job for the longest time & that was about it. No relationship & I lived with my parents. Somehow recently my life did a 360 for the better...a new condo & a boyfriend. I had all 3. I was learning what it was like to be happy. However I learned last week that one of those may change. I don't know much information right now but from sitting at my desk at work & seeing closed doors of my bosses & hearing that there is uncertainty of my future employment I'm freaking out. I kept waiting for the ball to drop with CJ or the condo deal so I forgot to watch the other. It's uncertain & it's making the pit of my stomach hurt like I just got hit with a cannonball. I can't afford to lose my job. I'm in the dark on all of this. I don't know what to think or do except let time go by to find out more. *fingers crossed* Please let all this have a positive outcome & not a boot out of the door. I'm just shaking my head cuz I don't know what else to do. I'll be back later today with part 2 from my trip. Right now I just can't seem to think straight at all.