So everybody I took your advice & just tried to feel good today. I totally had a $15 off of $30 coupon, so I went to Express & bought 2 really nice good shirts. The above one is one of them. I dunno I kinda feel like a Fem-Bot in it. Ya know from Austin Powers? lol. Well I need some "Date" shirts. I don't have a full-length mirror in my house so hehe Express Dressing Room will have to do. =P
This morning I made myself get out of bed & straighten my hair again. I walked into work & Omg the 5 men I work with ACTUALLY gave me compliments on my hair & said I looked nice today. I gasped a little inside with some happiness.
While driving home from my lil shopping spree, the whole Adam Lambert thing was everywhere on the radio. His music, he can do what he wants to do, I guess. But...I really like his new song. The chorus rings, "What do you want from me?". I then thought, hmmm...what do people want from Me? What will a new guy want from me when he meets me? What does the Mess even want from me in this horrifically akward time betweeen us? What do my friends want? What would that ex that asked me to dinner want? What do you guys in blogger land want from me?
I'll try to answer these as best as I can:
To the Future Guys I will meet:
You will find a complex girl with tons of likes/dislikes along with all the dreams of the world, and she will try ever so hard at everything she does. When I smile, I'm smiling for real. She will go out with you & she will genuinely enjoy spending the time because it's time with you. I might enjoy that time so much that I might love you. She'll love the little things & the cherish the memories. And I will go see that horror movie with you but I will jump & scream but just put your arm around me, I'll be fine cuz I'll have you. I will even go to every Walmart in the tri-state area to find that toy I know you've been looking for just to see the happiness on your face one day. Oh and please remember I have feelings...that's a key to me. =)
To my Future Friends I will meet:
Oh I got your back girl or guy. I will be there for you just say the word. I will go out & have those gossip lunches & Omg will love them. Even if the times are over I will miss you...if for some reason our friendship fell apart even if it was the worst of circumstances, I will miss you. I will tell you, "Omg you can totally get a better shirt than that & you don't deserve that crap from that guy." I will totally wait in line for the next Twilight movie with you too.
To the people of Blogger:
I will try to be as honest as I can here and speak with my heart. I will try to put out my shoulder if I can, and relate to you if I can & help or root you on! This blog is me. I'm a lil random, I go off on tangents, and I try out a lot of different things, but that's all part of life. I make mistakes, I have my bad days, I regret things, I try not to make those mistakes again...I'm learning. I'm learning to be just me and it's quite a journey. (Oh and the above about Friends can be added onto this one as well.)
The other two questions I spoke of before about that boy & the ex...hmmm...I just don't know what to do with them. It's a battle of friend or foe. A battle that may be over or not. It's too weird to tell. Too odd to make a move or a call...Too akward. To hard to decipher the lies & decode the truth, or the so-called truth. It's not my fault that I thought it might mean something more...or is it?? Time will tell...
Well I hope you all are enjoying this short week. I know I am. I can't wait to come home tomorrow afternoon & sleep. I gotta prepare for Black Friday. lol. Yes, I am one of those crazies that goes out, BUT as a note I looked up you can get up to 5 Years in prison for fighting...even if it's just over a toy or purse. That'd be a funny conversation. "Why are you here?"..."Tax Fraud"..."Drive-by Shooting"..."Drug Deal"..."I took some lady down cuz she bought the last Rock Band"...LOL!! PLEASE BE CAREFUL!!!
Okay one more day at work...Defrost turkey...help mom with more baking...keep dressing nicely...Gotta keep this up...Okay talk to you guys tomorrow. *Hugs*
Title quote is from Adam Lambert's song, "What do you want from me".
- The Birthday Massacre, "Holiday"