Image is Manet's "A Bar at the Folies Bergere"
This is week has been a series of bad days for some of my friends. You know that person you call when you have a bad day? The one you vent too, the one that will do everything in her power to make her laugh, the one that will drive 45 minute to a Walmart just to make you happy, the one that even if she's dead tired will still muster up the strength and hang with you if you had a horrible day? Well that's Me.
Everybody with a bad day this week called me. I think I'm missing my calling as a bartender or a therapist. I usually don't give them advise because I'm usually as in the dark as they are but I'll listen and try to relate. It got me thinking. Ever wonder what your purpose in life is? In medieval times, you were your occupation basically. The farmer was only a farmer, the painter was a painter, and the king of course was the king. But what about now?? You work your job and the real you is who you are when you leave those doors. Figuring this out is half the fun & twice the hardships of life.
Maybe my purpose is that I'm the person that's supposed to go in and out of groups and just be there for them when I'm needed? I dunno. It's happened to me a lot in my life, where I help someone out and then they leave or I move or forget or they move or we stop seeing each other if it's a guy or life just happens and the time is just not there. It took a friend of mine 5 years to admit that I helped save an ex of mine's life by putting my foot down & taking him to a hospital. (He was having a diabetic attack & he kept saying he was fine, but he wasn't.) Maybe I was supposed to be there. Yeah, most definitely I think.
It's odd how things happen. But they need to happen or else you'd be just a blank slate listening to the wind in your head. And that'd be SUPER boring, so I'm not checking the box for that.
I couldn't sleep at all last night. I think I got maybe 3 hours of sleep. Alot of people I've heard have had trouble sleeping. It's been very hot/cold/hot/cold up here in NY the past couple of nights but I think it's stress keeping me from sleeping. I think I'm sad about the condo I almost bid on. The people left so not seeing their hummer(yeah they had one it was HUGE) is reminding me there is a studio completely empty and how nice it would have been. I feel bad for my friends that had bad days. I don't know what to do with The Mess(He is one of the friend's that called me this week, too cuz he had a bad day). He's around lately but I just feel like I'm not doing anything to keep him around this time?? People tell me if he wants you, he'll come to you but it's far more complicated than that. I think I just need some sleep. Thankfully it's almost Friday. =)
OOOHHH!!! One more thing I was in a dollar store the other day and I actually found this Uber cute Dirty Dancing merchandise. A DOLLAR STORE!!!! Can you believe it? I was like What the hell?? It's a lil compact mirror with an image of Patrick Swayze and Jennifer Grey dancing with some makeup and a lil heart shaped keychain. I love dollar stores because you never know what your going to find. =) Here it is:
I cry along with you
When you smile I smile
I smile along with you"
"Footprints" Song by T.O.K.