Image is Manet's "A Bar at the Folies Bergere"
This is week has been a series of bad days for some of my friends. You know that person you call when you have a bad day? The one you vent too, the one that will do everything in her power to make her laugh, the one that will drive 45 minute to a Walmart just to make you happy, the one that even if she's dead tired will still muster up the strength and hang with you if you had a horrible day? Well that's Me.
Everybody with a bad day this week called me. I think I'm missing my calling as a bartender or a therapist. I usually don't give them advise because I'm usually as in the dark as they are but I'll listen and try to relate. It got me thinking. Ever wonder what your purpose in life is? In medieval times, you were your occupation basically. The farmer was only a farmer, the painter was a painter, and the king of course was the king. But what about now?? You work your job and the real you is who you are when you leave those doors. Figuring this out is half the fun & twice the hardships of life.
Maybe my purpose is that I'm the person that's supposed to go in and out of groups and just be there for them when I'm needed? I dunno. It's happened to me a lot in my life, where I help someone out and then they leave or I move or forget or they move or we stop seeing each other if it's a guy or life just happens and the time is just not there. It took a friend of mine 5 years to admit that I helped save an ex of mine's life by putting my foot down & taking him to a hospital. (He was having a diabetic attack & he kept saying he was fine, but he wasn't.) Maybe I was supposed to be there. Yeah, most definitely I think.
It's odd how things happen. But they need to happen or else you'd be just a blank slate listening to the wind in your head. And that'd be SUPER boring, so I'm not checking the box for that.
I couldn't sleep at all last night. I think I got maybe 3 hours of sleep. Alot of people I've heard have had trouble sleeping. It's been very hot/cold/hot/cold up here in NY the past couple of nights but I think it's stress keeping me from sleeping. I think I'm sad about the condo I almost bid on. The people left so not seeing their hummer(yeah they had one it was HUGE) is reminding me there is a studio completely empty and how nice it would have been. I feel bad for my friends that had bad days. I don't know what to do with The Mess(He is one of the friend's that called me this week, too cuz he had a bad day). He's around lately but I just feel like I'm not doing anything to keep him around this time?? People tell me if he wants you, he'll come to you but it's far more complicated than that. I think I just need some sleep. Thankfully it's almost Friday. =)
OOOHHH!!! One more thing I was in a dollar store the other day and I actually found this Uber cute Dirty Dancing merchandise. A DOLLAR STORE!!!! Can you believe it? I was like What the hell?? It's a lil compact mirror with an image of Patrick Swayze and Jennifer Grey dancing with some makeup and a lil heart shaped keychain. I love dollar stores because you never know what your going to find. =) Here it is:
Love it!
I cry along with you
When you smile I smile
I smile along with you"
"Footprints" Song by T.O.K.
8 comments:
ha! funny you should raise the subject.sometimes i feel i'm a better friend to my friends when they're not doing well or need help. in these times i'm there 120%. i'm on call 24/7. i'll sleep over, drive hours to find sour skittles...
but when they're good again, i might not phone 1 month.
weird...you've got plenty going on in that little head of yours girl!
xxx
I'm exactly the same as you when it comes to people needing help/to vent/anything.
Great post. I'm so glad we're not in medeival times. I would hate to think I was just being judged based on my career alone. These days its almost impossible to judge people that way since we all change careers so many times. Lol. I think we are all composed of so many different aspects...like one of your main aspects is being a great friend and a caring person. Your friends are lucky to have your shoulder to lean on. :)
Awesome find at the dollar store too, by the way! I love that movie.
I feel like I'm also the person my friends turn to when they need advice. They're always there for me, so I want to be there for them in return.
And that Dirty Dancy compact? Amazing :)
I always love your comments, I don't know why, but your words stay in my mind and you give me virtual strenght :]
I don't know that song, after I listen to it I'll tell you what I think !
are we ever going to get answers? I think the harder we look for answers the less we get :|
But I know eventually everything's gonna be okay, I just don't know when..
BTW i usually read some of your posts but i have trouble thinking what should I comment lool
"I think I'm missing my calling as a bartender or a therapist" I loved this part :]
big huge gigantic kiss *
Love that Manet! And what a find at the Dollar Store. I hope this next week goes a little easier. :)
Love that Dirty Dancing makeup! Classic. Good find. :)
xoxo
Ohhh, sorry you had a hard week love. Hopefully this past week was better! Wow, hope you get more sleep too. That is too fun that you found that Dirty Dancing find, love that!
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