Yesterday I went to visit my best friend Danielle. It was awesome when you see a good friend you haven't seen in far too long. The coolest thing about us is that a million years could go by but when we actually chill it's like no time has gone by. We call ourselves the Manielle. We tried on horrific dresses in the mall, tried all the fragances in the bath and body works, ate such yummy hummus & eggplant salad, took some photos, gossiped til our faces were blue, and made those lil butterflies I know how to do.
In our gossip sessions tho there was a real suprise. I thought it was just me that was kinda stuck in the middle of a friend split, mine of which is goin on with my friends up home. She is stuck in one too. In my friend split, I was feelling so left out and alone because the group I used to hang out with ALL the time doesn't exist anymore really. I thought it was just the Mess doing it to me but no. It was a "Friend Split". Well then listening to Danielle begin to tell me about how messed up and apart our ole group of friends from college is I was completely shocked. The game night doesn't happen, that bbq plan falls through, the game of poker is never finished, the movie isn't watched, and all those plans just fade away. But knowing that I'm not the only one going through this void of loneliness, made me feel a lil better.
I think I was hoping to go back to my old group of friends where me and Danielle were like "the girls" and try to find a place among them. That's not going to happen. Where she is there is this weird odd choosing of sides and splitting of friendships too. It sucks, plain & simple. Sigh.
But me and Danielle's friendship is still going strong. We're Fiesty & Ready for life's next punches.
So I right now I will hold on to the friends I do have and treasure them dearly.
Maybe it's the transistion from summer to fall that's got people a lil crazy and stressed? Or perhaps that saying, "Things eventually work out or iron themselves out" is true. It's just not the best outcome sometimes. Well you gotta take off the rose-colored glasses one day. And I'm finally taking off mine and NOT put them back on.
This weekend I'm going to try have some relaxing fun and work some things out. Maybe find a new group of friends...maybe try to make my own group...or try to help save one.
One of the boys I work with told me that I deserve a fun weekend. I'm going to try...