Oh somehow this morning I made the perfect cup of coffee. My mom brew the coffee in our black coffee machine & I added just the right amount of powder creamer & the right amount of Splenda. After the first sip I had to do the token, "Yum". I took a deep breath, let it out, and embraced the new day I wait for each night. That new day...and I gave it my all.
When drama happens or basically when life becomes a bitch for a while you can't just grab hold of the raft & let it take you. You have to take a stand, you have to not back-down, you have to remember that you are a person that means something & you need to forge a place for yourself in this world. My mom may be losing her job but she's not out of for the count. There are options & we've been here before. I actually had to leave Rutgers because my mom lost her job about 5 years ago. Times have been rough so this turning of our world upside down is not a stranger to us. We will survive & move forward. =)
Well now that I've let my hair down & let you read me like an open book I thought I would share some more light on things that the perfect cup of coffee made me realize today. I have a zombie novel that because my writer's group hasn't met in a while it kinda took a backseat in my life. I miss it. I want to write again. So many people have given me stories from their lives that I'm itching to use. Not actual zombie raids stories, but those..."That story would be greater if a zombie than walked in". hehe. I need to just let the creativity fly...
Also I found something that I actually am ashamed of personally. It's been almost a year since I graduated college AND I STILL HAVE MY COLLEGE BOOKS IN MY CAR!!!! Yeahhhhh I kinda found my bag from college in my trunk with my pens, pencils, & notebooks. I have to get this ball rolling. I want my future. I don't want to live in the past anymore.
I have to put away the textbooks & use what I've learned...not just in school but in life. I need to see those rings in the tree of my life & remember how each of them got there. Remember I hate the guy who makes you feel like your not worthy. Remember that I have 2 college degrees & I need to use them. Remember that stilettos hurt my feet so much. lol. Remember to pluck my eyebrows at least once a week & that I get too hungry at 3pm not to have a snack.
All of this came from that perfect cup of coffee & some wonderful bloggers' comments. It woke me up. I did what I wanted to do today & just felt better. I can't wait to see what tomorrow will bring. Not to be cheesy but I have to quote the movie "Men in Black" to end this.
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I want to make you laugh by saying, you have to drink coffee non-stop each day so that you'll wake up... you are a wonderful person and you have a lot of potentials. Leave the past behind and face the future. Focus on what you want... list the things you want to accomplish this year (don't plan too far ahead) and be realistic with your goals.
Those words came from a person who doesn't drink coffee at all. xoxo
Hey girl, sorry that your Mom is losing her job. But you are right you will make it and things will turn around for the good. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. A good cup of coffee certaintly does give peace and clarity often times, especially when it is a good cup. You should def let you creativity flow as should I, I am one to talk... lol. All in all just embrace life as it comes and continue to let your hair down. Prayers and blessing for you and your family. :o) xoxo.
P.S. Beautiful pic of you in this post!
Oh my gosh, I love that you still have your books in your car. I also love your excitement for what tomorrow will bring - what a great reminder for all of us!
Hey sweetness. Know what? I'm addicted to coffee. I need 6 mugs of coffee a day to call it a wonderful day. =)
I'm sorry about your mom losing her job hun. Hang in there. These times will be trying times for you guys and you need to help each other out. This might be a low point, but have faith that things will be better, maybe not right now, but things will get better. =) I hope you have a wonderful weekend.
There are worse things too find in your car after so long. You've got me thinking maybe I need a cup of coffee in the morning. Instead of water.
Hey Mel :)
It's been a hectic and outlandlish year on my end as well....but I always try to LOL and it helps, at least enough to give me hope for the next hours ahead....I mean I look at each day as "24 hours of fun, ummm yay" ...everything will work itself out somehow, and well? It always does...maybe longer than I'd hoped it would ha, but it still does.
And we've got to LET THE COFFEE GO, ...never! HA. I'm letting my hair down to, right after I've washed and styled it today hehehe. have a groovy day :)
I just came across your blog and this was a great first post to read. You're so positive. Just reading your words made my day better.
P.S. Would love to read some excerpts from a zombie novel!
There's never anything so bad that my first sip of coffee in the morning can't at least partially cure....to say nothing of the next two cups...hahaha.
A Zombie novel sounds great! I'm a big fan of the genre...
I also have so many of my college and grad school books lying around. This fact is a bit more annoying now that I'm in the middle of a move!
You sound just like me- you want your future..... I just went thru a major life changing experience where I had to draw a line so to speak! It took me a couple of years to move foward out of depression and get rid of the past! Keep on keeping on girly!
i hate looking at my books from college. they make me sick. sometimes i want to burn them.
Isn't amazing how a great cup of coffee really can make a difference?? Get it, girl, you deserve it!
xoxo J
woah that coffee gave you a great jolt of positive attitude too! I really love your tree ring metaphor, yes life is tough and we go through a lot of intense experiences, but at the end of the day we're amazing people who have already achieved so much so we should remember that
coffee for you, and tea for me! sometimes the little things really are the best!
very sorry to hear about your mom losing her job. argh. DAMN THIS ECONOMY! but maybe something good will come up for her, and soon! i hope so!
and college books still in your car?! hahaha! that is so funny. maybe swing by the library and give them away! unless you can sell them on amazon or ebay! :)
What did you put in the coffee?
Nah just kidding..
Stay strong:)
It's a challenge to remember to keep your eyes wide open and make an effort to do more than just going through the motions.
Keep a gratitude journal (5 things/day - like your perfect cup of coffee). Try 1 new thing per month based upon what you love (e.g., Thai Food - try a new place).
Somedays it is hard to live this way, but you'll appreciate it.
its true. it's all true...
i think i took the same way of thinking in my day today. i've been down on myself. and i just want to go out and buy stuff to make it better. but i noticed the feeling didn't go away. so i finally hung those curtains up that i bought last month. and i think i might paint a room tonight.
i'm doing the things i want. the things that exhert my heart a little...and i want to bake cookies or do something for some one else. i read in a magazine today that those that do service for others tend to live longer and are happier.
Don't feel bad about the college books. My husband graduated almost 20 years ago and he still has all his books and his notes. Drives me crazy.
Get crackin' on the Zombie novel. I can't wait to read it!
I'm glad you're feeling better! And I hope you get the chance to write more of your zombie novel. I hope someday I will get the chance to read it. :P
also Remember: smile back at people, try to save your money and not spend them in stupid things, carry on your life hopefully with a great Italian cappuccino every single morning...
but that's me, that's what I have to bear in mind
Clelia :))))
That picture of the coffee cup is awesome. Hey, guess who won? :)
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