Oh somehow this morning I made the perfect cup of coffee. My mom brew the coffee in our black coffee machine & I added just the right amount of powder creamer & the right amount of Splenda. After the first sip I had to do the token, "Yum". I took a deep breath, let it out, and embraced the new day I wait for each night. That new day...and I gave it my all.
When drama happens or basically when life becomes a bitch for a while you can't just grab hold of the raft & let it take you. You have to take a stand, you have to not back-down, you have to remember that you are a person that means something & you need to forge a place for yourself in this world. My mom may be losing her job but she's not out of for the count. There are options & we've been here before. I actually had to leave Rutgers because my mom lost her job about 5 years ago. Times have been rough so this turning of our world upside down is not a stranger to us. We will survive & move forward. =)
Well now that I've let my hair down & let you read me like an open book I thought I would share some more light on things that the perfect cup of coffee made me realize today. I have a zombie novel that because my writer's group hasn't met in a while it kinda took a backseat in my life. I miss it. I want to write again. So many people have given me stories from their lives that I'm itching to use. Not actual zombie raids stories, but those..."That story would be greater if a zombie than walked in". hehe. I need to just let the creativity fly...
Also I found something that I actually am ashamed of personally. It's been almost a year since I graduated college AND I STILL HAVE MY COLLEGE BOOKS IN MY CAR!!!! Yeahhhhh I kinda found my bag from college in my trunk with my pens, pencils, & notebooks. I have to get this ball rolling. I want my future. I don't want to live in the past anymore.
I have to put away the textbooks & use what I've learned...not just in school but in life. I need to see those rings in the tree of my life & remember how each of them got there. Remember I hate the guy who makes you feel like your not worthy. Remember that I have 2 college degrees & I need to use them. Remember that stilettos hurt my feet so much. lol. Remember to pluck my eyebrows at least once a week & that I get too hungry at 3pm not to have a snack.
All of this came from that perfect cup of coffee & some wonderful bloggers' comments. It woke me up. I did what I wanted to do today & just felt better. I can't wait to see what tomorrow will bring. Not to be cheesy but I have to quote the movie "Men in Black" to end this.