Oh my Oh my I have to say that the love & support from all of you has just lifted my spirits so high that I didn't need to wait like that kitty for the high-five. THANK YOU. I was so distraught when I wrote the last post but seriously I am just feeling so much better & calmer & I owe you guys for that. I wish I could hug each and every one of you. It's funny, I've barely told people yet that I see & talk to on a daily basis because frankly they're too busy or don't know what to say or aren't grown up enough to deal with yet another health issue from me. But that's life. You HAVE to take the good with the bad. You have to survive & keep going. You have to let people know that they are thinking of you & that they care. Even if its just a comment or a hug or a hand on the shoulder...it's a reach-out & I'm grateful for all of you. *HUGS*
Monday afternoon is my appointment with the boob doctor. I have been through this before when I had fibroids removed from my right breast a year ago so I'm familiar with the drill. I hope he skips the sonogram or mammogram & just does a biopsy. I know where it is, he doesn't have to go find it. Biopsy machines are weird. They kinds look like that machine in the movie the Matrix where Trinity is getting that worm out of Neo's stomach. I imagine tho that hurt less. It is a painful process having one, not going to lie. I hope he just does the biopsy so I'll know if its a cyst, a fibroid, or scar tissue from my last surgery. It's never easy. Cancer doesn't run in my family like I said but cysts, tumors, & fibroids do. I'm just going to keep my fingers crossed. 11:11 That's my wish.
Waiting is the hardest part. I thought waiting for the Mess to come back was worser fate. No I was wrong. Why couldn't I be waiting for a mortgage to approve or that minute for a pregnancy test or Richard Gere to show up in a limo or waiting at the DMV? Actually scratch the DMV statement...I hate waiting there hehe. Reading all of your comments has been such a heart-felt experience that I can't say enough how calming to hear people's stories & warm thoughts.
Monday seems so far away. Next week is like another century. I'm going to keep trying to keep busy. I bought the Sonic game for my Nintendo DS, I got alot of movies, I'm thinking of actually doing a Do-it-yourself project on my pillowcases...I accidentally put my hand through one of my filmsy ones last night so I need a new one...I'm going to a birthday party Saturday, & just let my mind wander off to my dreams. It'll be okay, I've done this before, and got stronger each time.
I did some retail therapy too to get my mind off of Monday. I did get these really cute leather scalloped flared with zippers ballet flats to go out in.
I wish I had News of some girth but I have to wait a lil longer. It'll be okay. I'm breathing in & out...calmly. Thank you everyone again! =) I'll be here waiting...