Thursday, April 22, 2010

I just gotta wait a lil more...and seriously Thank you!


Oh my Oh my I have to say that the love & support from all of you has just lifted my spirits so high that I didn't need to wait like that kitty for the high-five. THANK YOU. I was so distraught when I wrote the last post but seriously I am just feeling so much better & calmer & I owe you guys for that. I wish I could hug each and every one of you. It's funny, I've barely told people yet that I see & talk to on a daily basis because frankly they're too busy or don't know what to say or aren't grown up enough to deal with yet another health issue from me. But that's life. You HAVE to take the good with the bad. You have to survive & keep going. You have to let people know that they are thinking of you & that they care. Even if its just a comment or a hug or a hand on the shoulder...it's a reach-out & I'm grateful for all of you. *HUGS*

Monday afternoon is my appointment with the boob doctor. I have been through this before when I had fibroids removed from my right breast a year ago so I'm familiar with the drill. I hope he skips the sonogram or mammogram & just does a biopsy. I know where it is, he doesn't have to go find it. Biopsy machines are weird. They kinds look like that machine in the movie the Matrix where Trinity is getting that worm out of Neo's stomach. I imagine tho that hurt less. It is a painful process having one, not going to lie. I hope he just does the biopsy so I'll know if its a cyst, a fibroid, or scar tissue from my last surgery. It's never easy. Cancer doesn't run in my family like I said but cysts, tumors, & fibroids do. I'm just going to keep my fingers crossed. 11:11 That's my wish.

Waiting is the hardest part. I thought waiting for the Mess to come back was worser fate. No I was wrong. Why couldn't I be waiting for a mortgage to approve or that minute for a pregnancy test or Richard Gere to show up in a limo or waiting at the DMV? Actually scratch the DMV statement...I hate waiting there hehe. Reading all of your comments has been such a heart-felt experience that I can't say enough how calming to hear people's stories & warm thoughts.

Monday seems so far away. Next week is like another century. I'm going to keep trying to keep busy. I bought the Sonic game for my Nintendo DS, I got alot of movies, I'm thinking of actually doing a Do-it-yourself project on my pillowcases...I accidentally put my hand through one of my filmsy ones last night so I need a new one...I'm going to a birthday party Saturday, & just let my mind wander off to my dreams. It'll be okay, I've done this before, and got stronger each time.

I did some retail therapy too to get my mind off of Monday. I did get these really cute leather scalloped flared with zippers ballet flats to go out in.


Burlington Coat Factory: $14.99


I wish I had News of some girth but I have to wait a lil longer. It'll be okay. I'm breathing in & out...calmly. Thank you everyone again! =) I'll be here waiting...

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25 comments:

Silver Strands said...

I'm so sorry that you have such a trial in your life. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.

On a happier note, those shoes are adorable!

angel6033 said...

I am so glad that the support from all your followers has eased your nerves. Monday will come and go and hopefully the good news will come quickly. You have some great ideas for taking your mind of things. Movies and crafts always help, love the flats, very cute!!

Alicia said...

hey love! stay positive!!! :) try and relax this weekend and just remember that stressing won't help...but i'm glad that a little retail therapy did! cute shoes! sending positive thoughts your way!! big hugs to you!!

Kelly said...

I'm sure everything will be fine sweetie, Chin up and see what is said monday. I'm sure if the doctor was suspecting anything awful you would have an appiontment sooner too!!!

Jamie said...

Great shoes and the cat is cute:)

Little Ms Blogger said...

You love dancing - go tonight - be with people who make you laugh, who keep your mind off things. Trust me, that worked for me.

Barry said...

Melanie, I'm so encouraged by your attitude with this. You might have your ups and downs in between but through it all I have to say you're one of the most mature, level-headed people I know at any age.

Please please keep us posted with any news, even if it's just writing to get something off your mind. You know we all love you, care about you and are thinking about you, through the good and uncertain times.

Cee said...

Try to not think about it and enjoy the weekend...I know that's probably impossible but keep yourself distracted! Thinking of you!

Same Sweet Girl: Memoir of a Southern Belle said...

While I was waiting for news, I went and got a manicure and pedicure. It really helped to relax me and made me feel better about myself!! I'm still praying for you girl! :)

Tuesdai Noelle said...

Hey Mel :)

:::waves then HUGS:::: everything will fine :)...stay encouraged :) Cute shoes btw. Have a lovely day :)

Twila said...

Love the shoes. I have never been to Burlington Coat Factory. I am sorry to hear what you are going through. My prayers are with you.

Twila
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drollgirl said...

SO GLAD you are doing ok, and that you have an appointment on monday. whew! get 'er done and over with!!! and i hope it goes well

and I LOVE THOSE SHOES!! super!

Style, She Wrote said...

Super cute flats! I love!

Meghan said...

Aww, lady! Thinking about you!

Alisa said...

we are thinking of you and sending healthy wishes!

Heather Taylor said...

Happy to hear you're doing well darling! And those flats are just adorable!

Jack Daniel said...

Oh my dearest Melanie,

It's been a long time since I've visited your blog and now I get to know all about this matter! I hope everything is going to turn out well for you.

All the best!

Caroline Cakewise said...

I'm so sorry that you're on tenterhooks for this news, but at the same time so impressed by your attitude, positivity and facing facts. Let us all know how it goes - I know everyone who reads your gorgeous blog will be thinking of you!!
In the meantime, watch some more Astaire and Rodgers, and eat a lot of cake! :)
I'll be wishing you the best on Monday
xx

Lise said...

Omg just read your last two posts, have been a bit MIA lately. But holy crap you are a brave woman!

I am thinking of you hun, hope it's good news on Mon (if a cyst/fibroid can be good, but you know what I mean). Hugs!

PinkBow said...

the shoes are gorgeous. and i hope you're ok. if it's painful, it sounds like it will be the lesser of the two evils. thinking of you xoxo

Audrey Allure said...

I hope you enjoy your weekend, and it'll be totally fine on Monday, stay positive! :)
Very cute ballet flats!

Ally said...

Wow girl, I'm so sorry you've been going through all of that. How awful :( Hugs.

I think retail therapy is the best and I think it's even better when it involves a bargain.

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Jennifer Fabulous said...

Don't worry sweetie, you're going to be okay! Good luck at the doctor tomorrow. Just know I am there in spirit, giving you a big hug!!

bananas. said...

eek! good luck with your boobie biopsy. scary! but i will be thinking good thoughts for you.

hope you had a good weekend otherwise!

coolboy said...

beautiful and lovely pictures its great feeling i like aaall your post

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