Monday, April 26, 2010
Answers but then choices...
Why is it that every important day has to be tag-teamed with rain? Not an occasional drizzle...but Rain. I don't know. Today however was a positive day. I went to the doctor & then somehow there was a cancellation for a sonogram so I got in & found out the information. I have another fibroid. I had hoped that my next sonogram after I had my other fibroids out 2 years ago would be for a child one day but alas it wasn't. The attendant was very nice & gentle & took the sonogram picture of the fibroid. It was a dark mass so that means its a solid fibroid that screams the word, benign. Thank you God. However it one more person feels me up today I was about to scream a lil. hehe. Okay those are the answers...now the choices.
I have 2 choices to make that are going to be really hard to make. Picking a college was easier than this.
Choice #1: I can leave it alone & then they can check it again in 6 months with another sonogram to see if it has grown.
Choice #2: Have surgery to get it removed.
I don't know which one is the lesser of the two evils? The other ones I had grew to the size of golf balls. The firboid I have now...is about the size of a lima bean. If I get it out now, I won't have to worry about it growing. But if I wait...I'll know its there...it hurts...and if it does grow I'll be in the same place now fretting in 6 months....My head is spinning but it's an okay spinning.
Life is decisions & choices. Yes those are two different things. Some people are dealt with the health issue card but I'm grateful to be living now in this time where there is medicine & surgeons who care. I honestly don't know what I'm going to do but for tonight I'm just going to be grateful that its a fibroid & sleep a lil soundly. My dreams have been so whacked out I'd be embarrassed to even post them. lol.
*Breathe out*. It's actually going to be okay, just got to choose. I have a week to decide but that's okay. I'm calmer now so that's all I can ask for. =)
To all my followers & new followers thank you so much again for your comments. I gotta charge my camera so I can do a video post to properly thank everyone. I haven't been around to your blogs in a few days and for that I'm sorry. I look forward to catching up. *Cyber hugs*