Monday, April 26, 2010

Answers but then choices...


Why is it that every important day has to be tag-teamed with rain? Not an occasional drizzle...but Rain. I don't know. Today however was a positive day. I went to the doctor & then somehow there was a cancellation for a sonogram so I got in & found out the information. I have another fibroid. I had hoped that my next sonogram after I had my other fibroids out 2 years ago would be for a child one day but alas it wasn't. The attendant was very nice & gentle & took the sonogram picture of the fibroid. It was a dark mass so that means its a solid fibroid that screams the word, benign. Thank you God. However it one more person feels me up today I was about to scream a lil. hehe. Okay those are the answers...now the choices.

I have 2 choices to make that are going to be really hard to make. Picking a college was easier than this.

Choice #1: I can leave it alone & then they can check it again in 6 months with another sonogram to see if it has grown.

Choice #2: Have surgery to get it removed.

I don't know which one is the lesser of the two evils? The other ones I had grew to the size of golf balls. The firboid I have now...is about the size of a lima bean. If I get it out now, I won't have to worry about it growing. But if I wait...I'll know its there...it hurts...and if it does grow I'll be in the same place now fretting in 6 months....My head is spinning but it's an okay spinning.

Life is decisions & choices. Yes those are two different things. Some people are dealt with the health issue card but I'm grateful to be living now in this time where there is medicine & surgeons who care. I honestly don't know what I'm going to do but for tonight I'm just going to be grateful that its a fibroid & sleep a lil soundly. My dreams have been so whacked out I'd be embarrassed to even post them. lol.

*Breathe out*. It's actually going to be okay, just got to choose. I have a week to decide but that's okay. I'm calmer now so that's all I can ask for. =)

To all my followers & new followers thank you so much again for your comments. I gotta charge my camera so I can do a video post to properly thank everyone. I haven't been around to your blogs in a few days and for that I'm sorry. I look forward to catching up. *Cyber hugs*

Til Tomorrow...

26 comments:

Kelly said...

That must be a relief!! I'm so pleased it was what you had hoped for and not that other evil thing!!
Surgery scares me but I think I would have it out and not give it a chance to grow. Then agiain you have had the surgery before and know how it feels xxx tough choice xx Sending lots of love xx

Hobo ........ ........ ........ said...

Life is decisions & choice - correct.
And I say: The decision & choice is to add life into life. To add or not to add is a person decision And a choice.
Take care and do not worry.

Barry said...

Thank God!! Mel, you've had one hell of a stressful time lately, hope you can get some rest and approach your decision with a clear head. I can't tell you how happy I am to hear the news. *hugs*

Little Ms Blogger said...

My vote - take it out. It hurts and why should you be in pain?

wiredwriter said...

Yes, tough choices but it seems #2 is best in the long run. Not an easy choice but it definitely puts asunder most if not all concern. Hang in. This all will pass.

Cee said...

Take some time and breathe...I'm sure you will come to the best option for you right now. And be happy it is benign!

Same Sweet Girl: Memoir of a Southern Belle said...

Oh I'm so happy/excited/relieved!! I wish i could help with your decision but i really don't know enough about that to help you. I will however be praying for you to know the right decision to make! Have a wonderful day and keep smiling! :)

Jamie said...

thanks so much, oh no my battery is loading..! have to go :)

Leah said...

That's the best news Melanie... glad that is is benign. I'll be praying that you come up with the perfect decision. Have a great week! And thank God for the blessing. xoxo

Bathwater said...

There has to be someone out there who could still get away with feeling you up?

I say wait, but maybe I am a procrastinator.

tess said...

yay, this is tough, but glad it is benign. you've gone through a lot lately and you didn't need it to be worse. I dunno if you're actually asking for our opinions here, but I'd say it is easier and safer to just remove it now before it becomes a burden 6 months from now. this way you won't have to think about it any longer.

Iva said...

oh melanie! I am so glad its benign!! I am so sorry you even had to have something like this on your mind. so scary. I know you will make the right decision for you!

Tuesdai Noelle said...

Hey Mel :)

:::smiles and HUGS:::: ....just go slow with the decisions, it'll go come thru as it's suppose to. Have a lovely day :)

Audrey Allure said...

Hope you make the right decision for YOU. Although, I'd take it out now, at least you don't have to worry about it growing. Take care!

Tights Lover said...

That is great news, Melanie. I am so glad to hear it.

You do seem to be faced with a tough decision but you appear to be putting it in the proper perspective.

I hope it doesn't grow any further and you can stop worrying about it and being hurt by it.

Sammy V said...

Good luck in your upcoming decisions...and thanks for checking out my blog.

Steph said...

Might as well be rid of it :/

Take care!

HISdaughter said...

SOOO glad to hear it is benign, sweetie!!
THank the Lord :)

Sandy said...

YAY Mel! I'm so happy for you!
Life is full of decisions and choices ... we just have to hope we make the right ones and live with the consequences ....
good luck with your decision about surgery. i'm sure you'll make the right one for you.

Barry said...

Melanie, you're welcome. ♥

You make me feel better about life knowing there are people like you around.

woodlandsblonde said...

Hey lady, glad it wasn't more serious!

All choices have consequences....BUT - you've been through this before it sounds like. Did the others start out as small as this one?

If it hurts I say get it out!! If it's pain you can deal with...then maybe wait?

Gosh...I hope you make peace with a decision - but either way, sounds like you're going to be okay :)

Have a great day!

Heather Taylor said...

Whew, glad to hear it wasn't too extremely serious! I would get the surgery myself, only because waiting things out could be scary. In my shoes, I would literally think about it every day and it would consume my life for 6 months and that wouldn't be healthy.

Girl in My Own World said...

Oh my gosh Mel, I am so sorry that I missed all of the news earlier. I am so so glad that you are okay and that there is no cancer! Thank God! I would have it removed just to be safe, but then I have never had surgery. Still I just don't think that I would even want it to be in my body at all. Whatever you do, I will be praying for you. (((HUGS))) girly! :o) Try and stay up!

drollgirl said...

WHEW! it is still a tough choice, but it is not nearly as bad as it could have been. YAY!!! i am not sure what i would do. humph. i am tempted to say wait, but i know about the worrying thing. crap! this is a tough choice. but i am relieved you are ok, and that you are going to be just fine!!!

Heather Rose said...

First of all, I wish I could give you a great big hug. My butt is GOING to make it to New York someday JUST to hug you.

I am so thankful that it's benign, and I'm sorry you're having to worry about this. Waiting and wondering is so difficult. I know you'll make the right decision.

LOVE LOVE LOVE

Shauna said...

Glad to hear it's benign!

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