"Thrown off" is the only way to describe the past few days. I feel like I'm completely out of whack & thrown off my rocker. What probably was the culprit was the clocks changing back an hour. I'm one of those people who are affected by the weather & sunshine. There is a name for it I learned in one of my psychology courses I took in college but I can't remember it. It now gets dark around 5pm instead of around 7pm-ish. It's been two days of this uber early night-time & I already miss the sun.
(I saw that kitty in the bowl off google images & it was on too many sites to find source. It was too cute not to use.)
What hasn't helped me is that somehow between Halloween night & yesterday I got a cold & the stomach flu. DO NOT MIX GATORADE & CHEERIOS IF YOU FEEL NAUSEOUS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT!. I did get to go out in my lil red riding hood outfit this weekend & I did have a version of fun, but I pushed myself just a wee bit too far & got sick from the cold, the rain & my emotions. I'm upset because I really didn't need to get sick after using all of last week recovering from having my gall bladder out. I tried so hard to get better that I forgot to feel better inside as well as outside. On the surface you can look fine, but sometimes you have to look deeper & deeper til your inside & really heal yourself.
Lil steps, lil sips of ginger ale, lil bites of bread, & lil mends to my broken heart.
Sometimes you have to just stop. Stop what your doing or trying to do, turn around, and go the other way. Other times you have to take off that day of work & realize your pushing yourself too hard. You have to have that down-time to get better.
I took another day of work off. I haven't been to work since the surgery. My mom though did take the day off today to help me out, I was too sick this morning. I do feel much better, I think I just have the head cold left not the stomach flu... *Knock on wood*. I also think I'm sick still from having the surgery. When I had my fibroids removed in summer 08' I was sick too for at least 2 weeks. Any form of surgery knocks you off your feet, whether you like it or not, and your body needs to bounce back slowly. For this...I can't fight it...I have to just take it easy & not over do it again.
One day at a time...