Usually green means bad. Well, not today. All my life I have had a slight obsession with Green Leaf Cookies. I just don't care much for the Pink ones. I think other people do too because for some odd reason in the bakery I go to, there is ALWAYS like a hundred more Pink Leaf Cookies and barely any Green left at the end of the day. But luckily I snagged a couple tonight.
Has anyone ever tried these delicious leaf cookies? I'm not sure if they are a standard bakery item one would usually find in a bakery?!?!?!
Surprisingly I am actually in a good mood. I feel better and it did turn out to be just a cold. No more stomach flu. I just took it easy today. It's weird going back to work when you haven't been in over a week. My desk was still there, but I did panic when I couldn't log on to my computer for a moment. The work day went pretty well. I was missed & the guys(I work with 5 guys) were super nice to me about being back. My tummy hurts a little from sitting for 7.5 hours but it's doing okay. My incisions are healing, and before I know it they are going to be barely visible. *sigh of relief*
Today I also tried to not let my mind wander. You know how it is...the last person or the last thing you want to think about has that sneaky way of creeping into your thoughts when you least expect it. I tried my hardest to keep my head high & realize sometimes relationships are oceans...you can swim in an ocean but eventually you need to get back on the boat or come to shore. See I'm hoping for feelings to have been secretly held by someone & eventually those feelings will be shown if I stay around in the shadows of his life. But it's not going to be. He knows he can have me, but he obviously doesn't want me for whatever reason that it is unbeknown to me. This weekend was that sign that hit home. I'm fighting an ocean & I just can't win. The magic 8 ball answers of "Maybe" or "Rightfully so" are sometimes answering other questions in your head not the ones you've asked it. I have to get this into my head & make it stick.
For some reason I'm not numb but content. Maybe I freed myself from this glass cage that was cracking at every seam inside of me? Or...perhaps the contentment is the return of new dreams once again. That joy of a clean slate of new. Like my new cherry notebook. Or my good day at work, and the fact that is was Pay Day is fogging my senses. I don't know.
I guess this 8 ball answer is "Answer is unclear. Try Again."
I took it easy today, didn't do too much besides work and I felt much better. Lil Steps they do work. One day at a time.... I have an interesting post for tomorrow that I think might be enjoyable. Until then.
Title of this post is a quote from the movie, "A fish called Wanda".