The girl on the other side of the train platform was Me that day 4 years ago. I took this picture about a month ago at the Secacus Train Station & that guy has no idea I took that picture, & probably never will. What a shame, he looks like he's looking off in the distance...waiting for a dream. I wonder if he ever found it?
Well off to the platform story. See, instead of blogger, twitter, & facebook, there used to an online site called Myspace. I was addicted. Yes, I did the myspace poses for my pictures, had the pictures of my favorite stuff everywhere, and had a ridicolous amount of friends I never knew. I even had formed a myspace group for fans of the movie Blade Runner. So one day a certain gentleman joined that group & we started to chat about the movie & other things. He was about 6 years older than me. I honestly didn't think much of him then, just another face that I would never know in person, never get to meet or touch. Myspace was very impersonal & fake to me.
One day I took the train home from college. I got my lil train ticket & then walked up to the platform. It was cold so I had a lot of stuff in my hands & my big winter coat. The one thing I feared was losing my ticket in all this stuff, so I tuck the ticket up behind my ear. It sounds a lil dumb, but I then knew where it was. I waited for the train on the platform & noticed a few people on the other platform opposite me. I remember thinking how creepy would it be if someone put a mirror on the other platform so you would look and see yourself. I'd probably freak. Soon the train came, and I rushed on with the mass of people, found a seat, and dreamed.
Later that day when I finally got home I checked my Myspace to which I got this message from that Myspace group guy, whom which I didn't even realize lived near me,
I blinked in shock. What are the odds?!?!?!?! From that day on we've been cyber friends ever since. He saw me through a few breakups, I helped him through breakups as well, jobs, college, and messes. It's been about going on about 4 years.
But the catch here is. We've never really met. We've only ever talked on aim. It's funny. The only time we came close to meeting was that day on the platform. Well the finally in 2009, he wants to actually meet me. We've tried meeting up at the Renaissance Faire but I was too sick. So now he told me, "I wanna meet you before the end of the year." He told me this about 3 weeks ago and I reminded myself of this fact today. Hmmmm...Should I? Should I meet a this guy friend I've never kinda met?
I've realized doing one different thing in your daily routine can cause the weirdest yet coolest change of events. For example, joining blogger. It's introduced me to soo many people that I never would have met. NEVER. I'm grateful for these friendships I'm creating. I need you guys in my life right now. I like having my platform friend too. He's that person that will throw ya a text if he hasn't heard from ya in a while. We have very similar likes, and he's only an hour away from me.
I don't know what's kept me from meeting him. He's not a psycho so no worries there too. hehe. I know what he looks like, he is cute, but we've only been just friends for years so I wouldn't expect anything more on a get-together so again no pressure there. I think I should meet him. It probably will be awkward for a bit in the beginning, but who knows? I gotta do things differently to move on. I have to let new people in my life if they are trying to be a part of it. I'm a creature of habit like I've said. I sometimes need a lil push forward to enter a store, talk to this or that person, a push towards the right direction.
A push. Just a lil push can make all the difference.
Would you go meet him? Maybe just maybe I'd make a new friend. Should I? *Thinking*