It's dawned on me that I am just jumping from topic to topic this week...Forgive me and hold on for the ride... And above all else thank you ever so much for your comments and suggestions. <3
Tick Tock...As I write this my brows are furrowed and I'm swimming in my own uncertainty of what to make of this. This morning my boyfriend called me to tell me about a daydream he had. A small moment in his head during quiet time where he was alone putting away dishes from the dishwasher. He picked up his favorite mug and envisioned a future lil son breaking it purely by accident. The lil boy got upset and looked shamefully at CJ with a look of pure sadness. He turned to CJ and said, "Sorry Dad, Please don't be mad at me. I didn't mean to break it. It just happened." CJ turned to the imaginary future son and said, "It's okay buddy. I could never be mad at you." To which CJ snapped back into reality and realized he said the last part aloud and his cat just stared blankly at him when he looked down...
Well...I assure you he is not crazy. It has been hot these days but sometimes only children will get lost in their daydreams and perhaps say something out loud that we shouldn't. We can only hope we're alone when it happens. Been there, done that. What struck me as odd was the subject of his daydream. I think his Clock might have kicked in....I guess we shouldn't watch My Cousin Vinny any time soon...But do men have biological clocks?? I wonder....
I remember writing a post way back about mine not being active yet. I wasn't sure when it would kick in but I can feel it starting. It happened when I was helping one of CJ's cousins with her stroller. I joined the sea of strollers in the park while she went on the ride with her child and suddenly I felt weird. It then hit me like a rocket. It isn't going to make me make any rash decisions or forget certain things but I can feel it. I guess it could be another reason why I don't fear commitment. However when the time is right I think I'll know better and clearer what this odd twinge is in the back of my mind. I'm not ready for children yet but hearing the nice words of the daydream CJ had, I don't know made me feel a nice way about him. He's going to be a good father one day and I think it made me love him a lil bit more...
What a strange topic to write about and sensitive...but it's life. His daydream has been on my mind all day. One day I'll be a Mom...later than sooner but I do think about it...apparently CJ does too. These sound like steps in the right direction for us getting back to a better place that we are both open enough to talk about things like this...Yeah...it definitely does...Til Tomorrow... =)
3 comments:
If he is thinking like that and actually sharing it with you then, to me, it's a sign that his clock is ticking. Not to mention, men that talk like usually turn out to be good dads (which is super hot!).
The fact that he opened up seems very positive, Melanie. :)
He's a bit older than you, so I have to think he does have a bit of a biological clock. It's kinda sweet.
And that first picture is great. My husband expects to spend a lot of time with a baby and an xbox controller in his hand this fall. :)
YES, my husband is older than me and he def has a biological clock. It sounds like CJ may be growing up. :)
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