The answer is Yes. I used to hate that song because my ex would never love me the next day. The split second I was out of his sight he was looking for someone else, maybe more glamorous or just a better time. My CJ tho has brought the music back to me & will love me tomorrow... All those songs I would quickly turn off the radio or take off my ipod are now back & I sit there listening going, “Oh. That’s what they are talking about.” Yeah, it all makes sense now.
“…usually when things has gone this far people tend to disappear…”
Well not this time. Today was Cj & I’s 5 month anniversary. 5 months!!! I can’t remember when I’ve had such a successful relationship. Of course there are the ups & downs & healthy lil spats but nobody is perfect. I...The fact that I got to that Muse concert with him & have him put his arm around me & kiss me was more beautiful than any light show. He’s everything that I’ve been missing.
Going to the concerts, laying in bed twisting & turning until we get into the comfiest snuggle taggle, making our own lil pizzas, telling our secrets, holding hands, forehead kisses (I love these), letting me hug him til I’m ready to let go, apple picking just because I wanted to, couple Halloween costumes, him doing his homework & me writing my book, pushing my hair behind my ear, geocaching, & then those few moments where I’m just laying on his chest & he’s playing with my hair….I love him. He’s the first guy that made me see that those quotes about love are sometimes true. I hope he never disappears.
|CJ & me at the Apple Orchard!|
|I just love this photo!|
It’s funny tho. He’ll turn to me randomly & say, “Melanie I’m going to marry you one day.” I wonder. I really do. More so now than ever. I’ve had someone tell me they’d want to know me forever, but that lasted only 3 years. This? I don’t know, but he is still the lil light on in my lighthouse. He calms the storm that nevertheless will appear. I’m grateful, ever so grateful. He’s making the past fade. It’s a slow fade but it’s fading. I’m letting go. It’s a wonderful feeling that is so liberating I can’t begin to describe. Sigh.
Cheers to 5 months! Hopefully 5 more and more. All the rest of those idiots in the past…well…
“…Here it is, a red balloon. I think of you and let it go…”
Italics are song lyics from various sources.