Tuesday, October 5, 2010

The life of a twenty-something...buying your first place...


That picture right there pretty much sums it up. Messes. Last night I took an hour to de-tangle my favorite two pieces of jewelry. My favorite necklace was holding on tight to my favorite pair of dangling earrings. It was pretty bad too because it was one of those tight knots with no wiggle room. I pulled a few times at first but realized if I did that I could lose both pieces. So I sat & took my time & gently undid the necklace clasp & tried to slowly unhook all the tangles. It was a mess of black and silver. But isn’t that EXACTLY how life is? You get yourself into messes & you hope & hope that you can clear it up or detangle the intricate web you’ve weaved.

This condo ordeal has become a disaster to me. We finally got someone on the phone & of course there was no updated information. It’s been 3 months now since I said, “I’ll take it”. Parts that should have taken days have taken weeks & now months. I feel powerless. That’s a common feeling in your 20’s. Even after my temper tantrum, yes I yelled & screamed but got no where. I’m currently not speaking to my mother because she basically did this whole condo thing while I was at work. She is unemployed right now so she said she would help with this process. Everything anyone has told her or I has turned into fluffy lies. So much time has gone by that I don’t even know that I want the condo anymore. I should have kept my mouth shut that day I saw the listing on the computer. There is pretty much NOTHING I can do to make this go faster. It’s making me very stressed & very depressed I have to say.

Momentary Bliss is also sometimes a condition of being a twenty-something. You can be happy & on cloud nine & BAM that magic carpet will go back to the Disney screen & you will be left falling through the air. It’s a rollercoaster of cause & effect & every action will then cause a reaction. I was happy Monday morning & then stepped into my parent’s house & found out the incompetency of the people handling my mortgage. My mood just crashed. I’m trying to think of something to do, but it’s too late. I’m stuck with the decisions that have been made. I’ve been having such good days but reality creeped back in.

Comic Con is the weekend but frankly I can’t afford to go. I can’t dress up as an alternate person to please some fan kids because right now I can barely keep a hold on myself. I need to be me. That’s something that will run rampant through the streets of your mind. The sense of who you are. I’m not a dominant person but this powerless struggle I’m in to get this condo is wearing me thin. It’s been a bad day. A very bad day & I don’t know what to do with this condo situation. Sigh.

I promise tomorrow I’ll have a better post that is uplifting but this is part of my story. I have to include the good with the bad. I somehow have to clear up this mess.   

11 comments:

Claire Kiefer said...

I hope you feel better about the condo soon. I am sure the whole process can be incredibly overwhelming, although I definitely don't know anything about it myself, haha. Just think how much of a relief it will be when you're done with the whole thing and in your old place! Deep breaths can do a lot of good. :)

Susan R. Mills said...

Hope things clear up soon. That stinks. You've been so upbeat lately. I hate to see this bring you down. Wishing you the best...

Dancing Branflake said...

Oh no! I am so sorry this has all gone to a big tangled mess. So sorry about the situation. Talk about dreams being seriously put on hold. Good thoughts to you.

Krystal said...

oh my goodness, that sounds like a disaster...i really hope it gets better and you end up with what you want in the end!

FALEN AKA THUNDERCAT832 said...

As a blogger, you don't have to be happy go lucky all the time. That's what this is all for...so....LET THAT SHIT OUT! Vent! There a so many who are going through EXACTLY what you are going through ;) Hope all gets better for you though ma!

Melissa Blake said...

Melanie, I'm sending you positive vibes!! Hopefully, they'll travel through the computer and into your life!! :)

ChinkyGirLMeL said...

Oh no... I thought by now you would have moved in to your new place. Grrr...I hope you can get at least before the year ends. Take care sweetie. Virtual hugs for you!

CAPow! said...

:( everything will work out when and how it's supposed to...just remember that!

Sunshine Sarah said...

Cheer up, pretty! I know how you must feel, but things will eventually work out. I'm sure of that!

Take care, lovely!

Sarah.

Jennifer said...

I'm praying everything turns out exactly as you hoped soon! :D

Lulu said...

So sorry to hear the condo deal is taking so long. Such a bummer! Waiting is the hardest, but think of the great end result - your own place! Hopefully it'll be worth it, just remember how much you loved it when you made the offer :)

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