I stepped up to the plate & asked him Why? & It worked...

I never knew what the real Bonnie & Clyde looked like until today. The above picture is what that legendary gangster couple looked like. I think the picture is really cute that he picked her up like that. I keep calling CJ my Clyde now. No we aren’t robbing any banks lately but we seem to be doing everything together & spending so much time together that it reminds me of them. I did a post a week or so ago about him that he believed he was “Out of my League” & asking me questions about “Am I enough for you” or “Do you still like me?”. Well I got up the nerve to flat out ask him,

“Hey what’s up with that? Is there anything I can do to make you feel more like I’m yours & more secure in our relationship?”
His response was that it’s not me it’s him. I’m apparently being a great girlfriend to him & from his past serious relationships he has been branded with some insecurities. He said they are likely to go away with time, but for me not to worry because it’s something he himself has to get over. He then gave me a compliment which pretty much sums it all up.

“You’re the first girl I’ve ever dated that I feel like I can actually trust. I know when you say you’re going to your Writer’s Club, you are actually there. I’m not even scared to leave you to go have a cigarette. I trust you Mel & that is new to me & awesome. This is new for me. I actually am having fun in this relationship & I don’t feel like I settled on you.”

So the girls he’s dated in the past must have been real pieces of work that he’s never been able to trust them and he’s always felt like he’s settled on girlfriends. Now he feels like he’s in this relationship because he wants to be. That’s fine by me. You have to get used to the person & see if you fit into the other’s life. This relationship is working & we both have to get over a few things from our past so I’m hoping we can do that together. I have my own baggage so I think we’re pretty much equal. I hope we can just still take it one day at a time.

Also I found out that all this doubt might be from his mother. His mom told me that she asks him all the time, “Are you guys still together? Is it still going good?” I have no fucking clue why she says this because I see her all the time so I’m like huh?? Maybe because she keeps asking him questions it’s putting doubt in his head that we don’t seem like we’re working. We are working & I think she needs to just let us have a relationship & not know every little detail.


Relationships aren’t easy & aren’t hard but you have to meet in the middle, you have to keep an open-mind, you have to take the other person as they come, & be yourself to them. One thing I really like about this relationship is that I’m totally myself in it. The fact that he can tell that I’m being honest & being myself is amazing. I feel like I’m in a successful relationship & I hope it continues. I love the fact that we were able to talk about this stuff too. I stepped up to the plate & got my answer. Yeah!! I might have found my Jack. <3