Tuesday, February 16, 2010
What a battle...
Today was a battle from the start. But the battles are what make you stronger. *Take in Breath* I could barely get up this morning, hit the snooze button 4 times, witnessed the signing of a will for the company next store, couldn’t get out of my job parking lot because of the snow, got the last Guardacil shot(hurts like a bitch btw), slipped & fell in the snow, got paid but didn’t get paid for the last week’s snow day(I’m pissed about that), I thought the sports talk was over but now its onto basketball, had a nose bleed, went to a really skinny friend’s for dinner and got just tootsie rolls & Milano’s for dinner(I guess that’s all she eats in a day), & watched probably the most depressing movie of all time. *Let out breath* Whew, I’m really happy to be home right now. Lol.
But on another note the snow was beautiful. It wasn’t sticking to the roads so I could enjoy it. It was that perfect snow that looks like sprinkled sugar. I guess it missed me. For some reason I got the idea to walk a heart in the snow. It reminded me of the Johnny Cash song, “Walk the line”. “If you were mine, I’d walk the line.” That’s one of my favorite songs ever. I would walk the line, if I had the chance. Anywho, here is the lop-sided heart I walked.
I can’t wait for my heart to feel alive again or actually feel something real & tangible. But the snow will have to do for now. I’ll take it on one small dance of steps.
The movie I mentioned that I saw is 500 Days of Summer. I was debating just buying it tons & tons of times but I finally saw it in the library today. It was the talk of blogger a few months ago. I now know why. I wish I could say I related to Summer’s character but no. I related to Tom. Btw, Josepeh Gordon Lewitt is HOT!!! I know what it feels like to want to break plates over and over. I don’t want to spoil the movie…so I won’t say much. However I will say this. If I had to make a movie about my life right now...well I wouldn't be able to because this was it. The movie is not a love story but it made me see that are more assholes in the world than I thought. lol. But I like the last few minutes, it made me smile....
This day was a battle & took everything it could from me. I'm exhausted. I'll make sure to pack some extra armor for the future. I'm off to dream of sugary snow...Goodnight everyone.