I absolutely love first dates. It is actually the thing I love most about relationships. That first date where he's still a stranger & I haven't a clue what he's going to say. The playing of the 20 questions, seeing if his smile goes up to his eyes, watch him fiddle with his hands cuz he can't decide whether to take mine or put an arm on my shoulder, maybe the surprise laugh, & perhaps the spark when he might say, "Omg I love that too!!". It's a clean slate & the possibilities are endless.
Tomorrow I have my first date with Batman. Let's actually call him CJ. That's his nickname & I've been using it to everyone so they don't think I'm still talking to the Mess, my Brown-Eyed Mr. Big. They have the same name. It's weird saying his name again when I'm trying so hard to forget the mess BUT CJ is quickly replacing those thoughts with pleasant ones.
I got a text this morning from CJ confirming Wednesday night. I was shocked, then relieved. This is actually going to happen. He's cute, he's older than me, & has a good job..& he was sweet when he kissed me on the cheek on Saturday night. I told him, "Yeah sure we're on for tomorrow night"....to which I got this lil text surprise:
Of course I responded that it sounded great. It's a beautiful restaurant that overlooks the Hudson River. This is embarrassing to say but this is the FIRST time I've had a guy make reservations to take me out to dinner. I might have found a real grown-up guy who knows how to take a girl out on a REAL DATE!! This isn't some guy I made out with at a bar & then we started to chill. This is a dinner date. It feels so real to me & I'm liking this feeling. I'm not even freaking out, I'm ready for this.
Ironically tonight my friend Erin's sister gave me a new rope key chain for my set of keys to replace my old one. I've been using the one the Mess gave me for my 22nd birthday. I guess it truly is time to move on. New key chain rope, new date, new guy, new mind set. Eventually you gotta start again.
I don't know CJ well but that might be a blessing in disguise. At the date tomorrow we'll have tons to talk about getting to know each other & we do have mutual friends so there is stories that can be told & maybe we'll end up going for the walk. I told him I was having surgery on Friday, that's why we're meeting tomorrow & he seemed completely cool with it.
Who knows...It might work out...it might not...but regardless it's nice to be asked out for dinner to a nice place with "La" in the title, not just some mall place, & maybe it'll be nice to go on a real date with a man, not some pricky lil boy who has 3 other girls on his speed dial. I'm going to take a chance & who knows...Here's to hoping! =)