I tried to go out tonight to have some fun, but no. I got my face just rubbed into the past & was treated horribly. I'm done. If it wasn't 4:19am I would go to the hardware store to buy nails so I could spit them out....I guess that's what they mean when they say, "I'm so mad I could spit nails". I'm NOT giving up but I'm done. I'm done pretending things don't bother me, I'm done pretending I don't miss certain individuals, and I'm done being kicked around...not physically.
Tonight was horrible. It's part of my story. I was going to write this in my live journal but no one reads that. Here....All I can say is...if something a friend does or an ex does to you hurts you or pisses you off..TELL THEM. You can't go on with a mask on your face. You need to be a real person. I'm a real person & I want to live in the real world. I'm done. Just soooo done.
I need to somehow get some sleep. It was a bad night, a real bad night. I wish I could erase at least 5 names from my phone. I think I will. I can't go on like nothing is the matter. Saturday is a new day.....and oh it's going to be hell to pay.