– Avril Lavigne, “Im with you”
Hi Everyone. I thought it be best to explain what happened on Friday night that had me so done. Actually I’ll let the movie, “500 Days of Summer” explain. My Expectations didn’t match my Reality. Nowhere near it. Now I knew that magically ex-assholes were not going to miss me, that I wouldn’t have a few drinks & not get shit-faced or hungover, & that the night wouldn’t be the best night ever because for starters it was humid & my hair was frizzing. But I just didn’t expect it to be that bad. I had a feeling tho it was going to be one of those nights where I would regret my decisions. I handed the reins to one of my close friends & she took me to hell, figuratively speaking. I did the “Whatever you want to do” routine because she had been sick. I didn’t expect though to be left alone at the end of the night waiting for her to come retrieve me at the bar I escaped to. I thought we’d go grab dinner, head out for a few drinks, & maybe meet some new people whether they be future friends or future other… My friend, she runs with this pack…I don’t. I left because I’m not going to purposely sit and rub vinegar in my eyes. She let me go to the bar down the street & returned to her friends. I hate to say it was the highlight of my night. I went to a quieter bar alone & had a small drink & let out the breath of anxiety & tears that was burning in my throat. Eventually she came and got me & drove me back to her house to get my car. So what now?
What to do now? Never hang with that group again. They are bad people, without a trace of humanity left in them. I think the drugs, their values, & their own lives forced it right out of them. I thought it would be okay, but entering a lion’s den there will always be that possibility of a sudden attack. It’s completely fine too. I’m not a masochist so I don’t purposely put my hand in the flame. I know never to go with them again to a bar or go to their house. My friend tho……she is another matter that I will deal with accordingly, all in due time. I won’t ever let her drive for the night again. I don’t care if that means I’ll have to be the designated driver, if it means I have control over the situation that’s all that matters to me. People really need to think of others…like seriously ASAP.
You are all wondering where the apples & oranges part comes from in this post. It’s the perfect analogy for what I did Saturday night. I had my two best friends asking me to chill & up to this point they really don’t chill together. I’m not sure why they just didn’t mesh after high school but to each their own. The pressure of the two them asking me to chill was too much so I combined them. For some reason my friends are not friends with each other…barely any of them even like each other. It’s odd, so I usually have to pick sides & frankly I was sick of it.
So I called both of them & told them we were all going to chill. It was a total SUCCESS!!! We went to Dave N’ Busters and played games all night. It was nice to just have a girl’s night & not have the drama. The three of us went to high school together so we gossiped about who was now pregnant & who has gotten married & girl stuff. It just worked & it was such a reprieve. It is possible to have a good night out, thankfully. The weekend turned around & wound up being a good one. I’m actually still in a good mood because the night went so awesome. =)
I think I’ve talked your guys’ ears off so I’ll stop now. I got a few interesting posts for this week that I’m looking forward to writing. You gotta pick yourself up & keep going. That is so important. Til Tomorrow...