Thank you everyone for your awesome words. It made me feel lucky to have such good blogging friends like all of you. I was so upset I can't believe I wrote "Half" instead of "Have". Sorry about that. The news I got on Friday was initially a shock but now I'm more upset. But that's normal. I have to look at the positives & possibilities, but this weekend all I could dwell on was the lack of paycheck & my health insurance. BUT I do have mortgage insurance & I can collect unemployment if I don't get a job right away. I...this is definitely what growing up is; ups & downs. Being in the dark...
Inevitably my weekend got a lil fucked up. I haven't cried like this in months...probably since before I met CJ. I should have been more open & honest with him how upset I was. I think that's a problem us women do. We assume they see how upset we are & expect them to be magically sympathetic in every way we imagine in our head & when they aren't we get mad. I should told him that I just wanted him to say, "I'm Sorry for you, babe" and hold me while I cried. Eventually he scooped me into his arms & did just that. I think I feared having a fight too much that I just didn't speak my mind. I have to work on that. He sang, "I will Follow you into the Dark" by Deathcab for a cutie too. I love him so much, so so much.
11:11pm...Make a wish. I have to re-enter the job market after 4 years. I knew eventually I had to leave his company but not with such a strict deadline. I got too comfortable I think. I used to be a data analyst/adminstrative assistant type deal. I have a Bachelor's in Math & an Associate's degree in Engineering Science and job experience. It'll be okay. These next few weeks I have to try my best to push forward & write a damn good cover letter. I have to.
I just crashed on Friday night & I even talked gibberish in my sleep from stress. This is hard, very hard. I still have a month & a half left of work so I have to still have to put in my 110%. Sigh...this is going to be rough.
I do have a giveaway for later on Monday to lighten the mood. Thank you all again for such support & lovely thoughts. I needed them. Thank you truly. =)
Btw, Krysten of After "I Do" is the Winner of my CSN STORES giveaway! Please email me when you get a chance. =)