After all the hours of working, partying, & thinking are done I am left to stare out my window waiting for the possibilities of my actions. I keep sparingly mentioning a New Guy in my life...well I think its about time I told you a lil more about him.
Frankly I don't know what he is right now. He's the guy who him & I are having a few stolen moments ever now & again over the last few weekends, when everyone has left & it's just him & me. His kisses have been the balloon that has carried me back to the Earth with my two feet on the ground. However there is a good side to him, as well as a bad side. (btw, I've come to the conclusion that nothing will ever be easy in my life, especially my love life). So I'll shed some light on the goods & the bads of him & maybe you can help me see if the goods outweigh the bads.
-If he's going out drinking he'll call a cab for the night. Never drinks & drives.
-He kisses me so deeply that he's wearing my eye-liner at the end of the night.
-He notices that I have switches in my personality...he can tell when I'm mad, upset, happy, or frustrated.
-He's tall & handsome like he has a beard that's somehow soft.
-I actually like the band he plays the drums for (I don't really like Drummer Boy Ex's band at all)
-He let me make a playlist on his computer just for the time we spent together.
-He will buy me drinks & tries to feed me when i go to his house
-He lives with 2 other guys but technically has his own place.
-Got a great job in a Union that he cares about & knows he has to show up for work.
-He keeps a photos of his family in his bedroom & shows me his nephews pictures.
-He does call me pet names.
-Will ALWAYS take a shower before we all come over so he smells really good.
-He likes movies & actually cuddles & will turn my face to his if he wants to kiss me.
-He doesn't sleep. He thinks nothing of being up til the sun comes up. I think he might take Aderol or something to keep himself awake. That could be a problem.
-I never see him during the week or hear from him.
-He called me last Saturday night at 5am to pick him up & his roomate to take him home after his night of partying without me. He said he didn't have enough cash for a cab & wanted to see me...yeah right.
-He's a cigarette smoker, but he does have really white teeth & pops alot of gum.
-He's a biter. I like to keep my flesh on my bones without lil markings. He doesn't give hickies he leaves bite marks. SO I guess he's a wolf marking his territory?? I dunno its starting to piss me off. Why not just ask me to be your gf instead of biting me?
-I always see him when we're all going out so he usually has a beer in his hand.
-He has trust issues apparently from a really bad ex.
-He is a teddy bear with a chainsaw. We have already had 2 fights & we're not even dating yet.
-He's bluntly honest, but he will tell you when you look like shit which will make me feel like crap.
-He's a bit of a gossip whore. He wants to know everything that it's not even my place to tell.
-Oh yeah & he is another drummer...i've had bad history with drummers.
-Hates girls who wear sneakers & that's usually what I wear
Soooo yeah, as you can see there are reasons why I haven't really talked about him because I'm the on the fence with this New Guy. From writing all the out it really seems like I'm just the girl at the end of the night who just happens to be there so it's falling into place. But...then again I still don't know him well, this might be the beginning stages of something or just a fling that's keeping my sanity a lil in check. I don't know. All I know is I will keep my eyes open. I'm not going to be blindfolded by another creep. No way.
It's hard to even come up with a Nickname for him? Drummer Boy II? Teddy Bear with a Chainsaw?(I like that one) Idiot? Fence Boy, cuz I'm on the fence with him? Wolfie, cuz of the biting? I dunno. I'm not even sure if its worth giving him a nickname at this rate. Time will tell.
I really just wish I could find someone to stay. Someone, who like the 50's song, will love me tomorrow. It seems that SOME guys are just in the moment these days & when the dawn of light peeks through the truth comes out or your left to go home alone to once again start the search. I should see this guy this weekend again so I think I'm going to bite the bullet & ask him "What's going on with us?". I got NOTHING to lose because right now I have nothing. I hope he's on his best behavior next time I see him. I hope...