Messed-up Love Triangle Zombie Novel on the Horizon…Watch out for it one day…

(One of my cherry notebooks circa last year)

Ah writing…I miss you. I know I’m writing right now but I see my blog as more of a Pg-13 diary I have that showcases my randomness each day with a few R-rated twists. What I’m really missing is writing my novel and short stories. When I began this blog I had a lil cherry notebook I wrote EVERYTHING down in, including my back-seated zombie novel. I’m not blaming CJ, my job, my last health-reason surgery or the condo ordeal but there were a lot of factors that took higher priority to me than a quirky messed up love triangle zombie novel. I even had to give up my Writers’ Group because I was just too busy and too tired.

But I found one of the cherry books the other day and brushed the dust softly off of it. It was details of the ending months dealing with the Mess, my Williams-Sonoma demo notes, my blog post ideas, my dreams, and the novel. Finding the last sentence in a chapter barely finished hit me hard. The zombies were attacking and then empty space. I have a problem finishing things and this too fell by the waist line. I can barely finish a song on the radio without changing it…but all the work that was done should not be just lines in a notebook no one will read but me.

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Later in the month I will be returning to my Writer’s Group. It has been almost a year since I stopped going. Yikes! I sound like I’m in a confession here, lol. I’ll admit that I’ve been a lil hesitate to even set foot in that library where the meetings were because I was embarrassed for ditching it. What if I ran into the director of the club and she was upset at me for leaving or the answer I gave for leaving wasn’t believable enough or what if they wouldn’t let me rejoin? But the fear was for nothing. My mom spoke to the lady and she said they would love to have me back. 

Of course there is tons of zombie/vampire/monster stories now but why not have one more with an attempt of an original twist? I’m staying away from the vampire deal tho…that has just been completely overdone. But zombies? Well, I think it’s worth a shot.  The Writer’s Club will hopefully give me a bit of a boost of motivation with small deadlines and some feedback from an array of different people. It should be an interesting experience this summer.

Any Writers Out There? Any Advice on how to Keep up with a Writer’s Group? 

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Stolen Moments...

(Some Mother's Day Homemade Cupcakes)

This weekend was jammed packed and YES I fit it all in...It was awesome going from a communion, to a Kentucky derby party New York Style, then a Graduation Party, and some Mother's Day celebrating! There's alot so here are my Stolen Moments of the Weekend:

~My Mom told me she was so happy to be my mother and so proud of me. I gave her a kiss on the cheek and a huge hug and told her she was the best! I got to wish my aunt and my two grandmother's happy mother's day too. I really am lucky to have these wonderful ladies in my life! <3~

 

~CJ's cousin's Communion was so pretty and elegant. There was mimosas on the tables, karaoke, a breakfast/dinner buffet and all the kids were exceedingly well behaved. Cj's cousin looked like a lil princess. I remember my Communion and just loving the dress and the crown. My crown was my mother's from her wedding. Maybe I'll wear it for my wedding...~

 (This was my Communion picture back in 1992.)

~The ladies of CJ's family sat me down with their planners and told me all the important dates I need to know. They can be so welcoming of me sometimes and I really like that about them. I think I might have a new friend in one of his cousins...She's only a year younger than me and she lives where we work. I told her we have to get lunch one day soon! She agreed!~

~In other news...I'm really starting to love my new job. I was so happy it was the weekend but when I came home on Friday I had the moment where I was like "Wow this week was awesome at work because I got everything perfect that they need me to do. Hell yeah!"

~Last but not least I went to friend Erin's Graduation party. It was so nice to see all her family and it's amazing how time flies. One of her lil cousins is now 10 years old & I remember being there the day the lady announced she was pregnant. How time flies...!~

~I made a wish on a dandelion...I know it seems silly but you never know. I blew it all over my grandmother's grass and then sneezed repeatedly for about 5 minutes after. lol.

The new week is starting...I wonder what new things it will bring....I will be making Cake Pops this week so Stay Tuned for the post! 

All the Mother's in the world... 

Happy Mother's Day!!

What were your Stolen Moments this Weekend?

The Night is Calling....And it Whispers to me Softly, "Come and Play"...

Yeahh it's Friday, the weekend is here and my schedule is booked solid. I have a communion party, a graduation party, and a mother's day extravaganza! At least tonight I can just chill out with CJ. =)

My name in Greek and Latin means "Dark Beauty"...but I'm trading in the dark for some lighter colors. I picked up my new favorite dress at NY & Company and I'm going to wear it tomorrow at the Communion!

I love it! I also touched up my French Manicure with Milani Nail Art Polish I bought at CVS with a precision brush! It worked like a charm! I love getting manicures but I just wish they lasted longer. This product hopefully will help me out til the end of the weekend! =)

I'm off to go to CJ's and my weekend parties. I hope you all have a great weekend and will see you on Sunday! Later for now!

Honesty Makes the World Go Round…

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Thank you all for your responses on my issues post. I’m going to take the advice to heart and not force anything. When the time comes I’ll be natural and honest. I have a bad habit of holding things in up until I just can’t stand it anymore, which then turns into a blow-up rant that never accomplishes anything because I’m just incoherently ranting…so I’m going to take it slow. I try very hard to above all else be honest; especially when it comes to CJ.  I think that’s how we work.  Sometimes blunt honesty can hurt like a bitch and be misconstrued however all the cards will then be out on the table. It’s the best way to go. 

 

I’ve been thinking a lot about all of this and frankly I realized if you’re not honest with someone it just opens the doors for problems or insecurities. I have 3 friends that are not entirely honest with their partners and it shows…

One friend of mine has been dating her boyfriend for 5 years now and they are on the brink of major life decisions that not one of them is really talking about. She is hoping to move to Arizona with him from New Jersey so she can have a teaching career and he has just agreed to go with her. There is SOOO many things they are NOT talking about that it makes me feel almost uncomfortable when it isn’t brought up in conversation. What if he can’t find a job? All his family is here so if he leaves would he be happy? What if she doesn’t find a job and they both are stuck there then? What about their cars? When she talks about how much she loves him she always talks in the past tense…(That one I’m not sure she is even aware that she does it) I think they really need to sit down and talk things out honestly and openly…I hope.

 

Another friend is seeing one guy, is in love with a past lover, and is still trying to get revenge on an old flame of hers by always saying no when he calls her in the middle of night. This girl I really think just craves the attention but she is being honest with none of them. The guy she’s seeing tho has no clue about the other guys and she’s sort of doing this Stepford wife perfect girl routine that she can’t hold up forever. This friend however I’m at lost what to tell her anymore. I’ve told her to be honest with these men but I think she needs to be honest with herself more as to what the hell she is doing…le sigh…

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The other friend is keeping a secret from her boyfriend. I doubt either one of them read this but the secret is about something that happened to her a while ago that changed her appearance. If she ever has a baby with the boyfriend the secret will come up. No it’s not a sex change or nose job but she sees it as very personal and doesn’t feel he needs to know. I think it makes her who she is as a person because it was done for health reasons but she is not telling him. I wish she was more open with him because she thinks he’s the one…But it’s her valid life choice…but I think she should just tell him...she used to smile so much brighter before...He should see the light that is there...

Honesty could help out my friends but who knows. When I they come to me for advice I usually tell them honesty is the best way to go. It may not solve the problem but it’s a start…

Do you make an effort to be Honest in your Relationship? 

 I’d love to hear...

Instead of Cake Fondant I used Chocolate! What a difference!

Alas, tonight was my last cupcake class. It went by too fast. Instead of doing more buttercream cupcakes my mom decided to teach us something a lil different. She isn't a fan of fondant icing and neither am I because it never has enough taste for us soo we looked to other means of decorating. Fondant is primarily what The Cake Boss uses to make all his creations. It can be molded into beautiful things but there is alternative ways to do the same thing.

Some people make Candy Clay which is basically chocolate melts & light corn syrup instead of the marshmallow that is fondant. If interested here is the link to the Wilton page for it. Candy Clay. My mom saw the recipe and knew it was going to be her last class activity. We prepared 1 recipe in several different colors for the class and got down to business.

Using the fondant sculpting tools & a rolling pin purchased at Ac Moore & Michael's we made some cute lil marvels. 

  It all starts when you roll out the candy clay and start using the cut-outs. It's as simple as that.The white stuff is powdered sugar which I sprinkled on it so it wouldn't stick to the rolling pin.

 Using the fondant cut-outs I made this spiral flower. You can even use cookie cutters in this candy clay if you wanted to. These can then be placed on a cake or the top of a cupcake for an extra chocolate treat.

 

  It all starts when you roll out the candy clay and start using the cut-outs. It's as simple as that.

 Then you can take it to the next step and mold yourself a rose...Maybe I'll do that in a future tutorial here...

It was nice to do something different. Some of the inspiration my Mom took for her class was from watching Youtube videos too. If you put it in Cupcakes a field of possibilities for motivation will come up!

What's next for my Cupcake Passion? Well my Mom asked me tonight if I would like to take over the class and become the Teacher...I happily said yes! She's going to talk to the Board of Adult Education but it should be fine for me to step in!! Woohoo!! Can't wait!! =)

Well I got some candy clay to try out...See you tomorrow! =)

If it Makes You Happy...It can't be that Bad...

 

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So I got a question...When Is the next full moon because today was an absolutely CRAZY DAY!! Work was insane, I broke the washing machine, I messed up my couponing selections at the super market, and there is a piece of my hair that won't come down. It was insanity. The Energizer bunny took over and I tried to cram it all in, which has left me frazzled. Thankfully there is wine...Just one glass and I feel better...

In lieu of the craziness my brain decided to take a mini vacation tonight so I took some pictures of things that made me smile today.

A Hot Apple Pie Candle...hmmm...my kitchen smells delcious!

I sent CJ my usual Good Morning text and I got this response from him:

"I love how you text me every morning. U have a good day. I love you."

<3

My "M" mug from Anthropologie. <3

 I left the flowers up on a shelf and then they dried themselves. Even wilted they are still beautiful!

 I found a Mama's & the Pappa's 60's Album at a thrift store recently in pretty good condition for $1.50. I had to get a frame for it! =)

My Next Project: Mastering Cake Pops. I now have the mold...I can't wait to make them!! =)

Okay, I have to get some sleep. My mind is mush...See you Tomorrow!

I text a postcard sent to you...Did it go through?

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Never in a million years that day a year ago when I wished at 11:11 for a guy to call my own that it would come true. I remember I wished for love...and it found me shortly after.  He found me and had to see me again. Cj... A year has gone by almost in a blink of an eye. We skipped a few of the formalities that come after time because our parents work together, but we didn't know it at the time we met. We were both only children with tons of stories to tell...It clicked and it worked. I still smile at the thought. =)

But it's been almost a year since we've met. A year brings new meaning in his book as well as mine. I don't know how to describe a mini pink elephant that is in the room I think with us lately. There is I think some unspoken thoughts that were mentioned briefly 2 weeks ago when we both were sick that I don't quite know how to bring up again...

We've never had a problem talking about issues, changes, & concerns or anything really but I'm a lil apprehensive about mentioning things now. This is my longest successful relationship and I think I'm still scared of fucking it up. The topics are the next steps...I fear my condo isn't big enough for the both of us but before we make any big decisions we should live together a lil bit. Cj admitted to me that he was scared of us moving in together and I think that's rooting my fear. We decided to talk about it later when we both weren't throwing up every half hour. Later hasn't come yet tho...How on earth do I start it off?

CJ comes and stays over alot at my place so it's not like it would be an abrupt change if we did move in together, but I don't know what he's scared about. He also recently told me that he's never had a girlfriend that was such a partner and a true girlfriend who wants to make him happy and it's a lil unnerving to him. Also work hasn't been so easy on him so who knows if that is adding more stress. Probably. I have to wait for the right moment to bring it all up. Soon...

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The feeling tho I get when we fall asleep next to each other and I get to feel his arms around me is worth it all. The love is irreplaceable in my heart. If I didn't have CJ I'd be so lost, more so than I've ever been in the past. I love him and I hope the later comes sooner than later... Til Tomorrow...

Sunday Stolen Moments...

Every Sunday I have a lil topic called Stolen Moments. One Day I was at a local wine shop and saw a bottle of wine called Stolen Moments. It was a rose wine that just stole your breath away. On the bottle it read..."A fresh and distinct wine created for life's hectic pace" and indeed my life has a real hectic pace right now, but I always manage to have a few quick weekend moments that I never want to forget.

This weekend I remembered how much I enjoyed blogging. Hearing people's stories, looking at pictures, seeing new purchases, hearing the latest gossip from the high teas for the royal wedding, learning how some of the world is bracing for Fall while others are rejoicing for Spring, the different opinions, and the people...Ohh I miss the people I've connected with on here. I may never meet all of you but you've changed my life forever. I tried to come back last week but it was a struggle like a raging storm. But it has passed and I'm ready to rock and roll. I realized I can write out my blogposts at lunch and then type them up when I go home. It's a plan and I can't wait to tell you more...

Here are my stolen moments of the weekend...

 ~ With the new job and my tight couponing budget for certain grocery/drugstore items I was able to make a purchase I just couldn't wait any longer to do. I woke up at the crack of dawn this morning and headed to Target to pick up that camera. Canon Powershot SX130IS. I have never been so happy! It has such crisp clear shots and it's so easy to use and IT WAS ON SALE!!!! Regularly it was $229.99 and I bought it for $149.99. That's an $80 difference. Hell Yeah!! My main reason for buying this one was the zoom. Odds are I won't be right up against something so I want to be prepared. It's not that heavy, has a 3.0' LCD screen and 12.1 megapixels. For right now...it's perfect.

~ Finally the tulips have bloomed and I stopped to smell the flowers. I find it so important not to forget to enjoy the lil things. Those pictures are all from my new camera. I love the fallen red tulip. Even tho it was on the ground it still was beautiful. "Cuz there's beauty in the breakdown..."

~Having a girl's night on Saturday night with my best friend Erin. We've been friends for 15 years. It was so nice to talk to a friend who's been there through it all. Knows all the references, the people, and the stories. We talked for hours and it was so enjoyable. I love my boyfriend and spending time with him but sometimes you need time with your gal pals for some serious girl talk. =)

~Setting up CJ an account on my Wii. Our relationship has gotten very interesting lately and is hitting new plateaus as a year approaches and I don't know but seeing his Mii next to mine made my heart smile. Our lives are growing together and there are times where I'm so thankful and feel so lucky. =)

~Cj and I also fixed my kitchen faucet. It had been leaking since I moved in and he jumped at the challenge. That man amazes me more and more every day. He watched some vidoes and talked to guys at Lowes and we successfully changed out my faucet. Whew....$400 I didn't have to spend! YIPPEE!!!

What were your STOLEN MOMENTS this Weekend?

Okay I'm going to go get ready for the week. See you all soon! I'm going to be catching up!! 

...Til Tomorrow...

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