When I was younger I loved to put on my mother’s shoes, her make-up, perfume & play in my grandmother’s closet. Becoming an adult was something so far fetched to me that I never thought it would happen. Of course I got older & now I’m in that tricky age where I’m seen as an adult but I still feel like a big teenager still struggling to find my way. However there are moments that make me feel like I’m on the right path, made the right choices, & actually might feel like a grown up.
It might have been cool to get sprinkled with pixie dust & stay young forever but I have a feeling it would get old. This holiday season I’ve done so many things that have made me walk a lil taller, feel less lost, & happy where my life is turning. One being driving up to my grandmother’s with CJ for Thanksgiving. It’s usually my parents & me driving up alone. It’s been that way for 24 years. This year it was different. I got to bring a guy up & drive up myself with him. It might seem so simple to you guys but it’s sort of like a rite of passage to me. I can’t help but smile.
I asked CJ who is 4 years older than me if he still had those, “Wow I feel like an adult now” moments. Oh yes he does. Over the end of last week he got a promotion at his job & he is ever so ecstatic. When I went over to his place to congratulate him he told me that he’s starting to feel like he’s finally where he’s supposed to be & that he feels like he’s becoming a successful adult. I'm SOOO proud of him! =)
Turning 21 was awesome, graduating college ruled, and now I’m faced with a lot more serious things. Mortgage payments, needing an increase in salary so I’m going to HAVE to look for a new job, watching my cholesterol, and making sure my back doesn’t go out again are more things but it feels right. Having a man in my life not an asshole boy is another. Having a dinner date with a couple that isn’t at a pizza place but a restaurant where your napkin is folded over your lap is making me feel like I’m EXACTLY where I’m supposed to be.
Call me strange but I like paying my bills. I enjoy having my credit card to use & getting in my car & driving wherever the wheel takes me. It’s a joy. I think I might have to change my blog description a bit because I might just NOT be lost anymore. I might be found & I might actually be a grown up. That’s fucking awesome. =)
Do you still have those, “I Feel all Grown-Up moments”?
I’d love to hear. =)